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Jack White.

8:49 am

Had a hard time falling asleep last night, but I only woke once to use the bathroom and fell back to sleep rather quickly. I’m glad that the night time pacing only lasted one night.

I’ve been lazy about going to the pharmacy. I have had meds to pick up since last Saturday, and even though I’ve been in town several times this week, I just couldn’t make myself go in the opposite direction of home. I don’t know if it’s because I’m tired and in pain, or weird anxiety that is causing this. I have no choice to go today, though. Plus I need to go to the store anyhoo. Not that the store is anywhere close to the pharmacy, but I’ll be out, so I will go.

It’s fucking cold out this morning. 11 degrees with a windchill of 1 degree. My feet refuse to get warm despite thick socks and my slippers. The floor is concrete, and even though it’s carpeted the cold really seeps through. When I get home I will try putting on even thicker socks.

My birthday is coming up and I’m feeling very meh about it. The older I get, the more it bothers me, of course. I don’t feel like I’m my age mentally, and even though I’m in pain 24 hours a day, I try not to act anywhere near my age physically.

12:10 pm

Well, I ended that abruptly, didn’t I? Pam was ready to go to the store etc and I just jumped up and went, mid thought.

I’ve been posting a lot of anti-trump memes the past week or so. Some of my friends are still supporting him and I still don’t get it. These two friends I know don’t have a hateful bone in their bodies. They’re not like my sister. But they comment, and I have to ignore it because I really don’t want hurt feelings between us all. It already happened once. I unfriended them because I just couldn’t ignore their comments anymore. Honestly, they are not hateful comments (ok the last one was really snarky but…) so I just have to ignore them. It’s killing me to not open my mouth, though.

Ok. I need to figure out what I’m posting for JVM today. I’ll be back later to babble about absolutely nothing.

8 pm

Pam gave me my birthday and valentines gifts early. lol she thought Valentines was tomorrow. We both work on my birthday and she said she couldn’t wait to give them to me. She got me a new sound system for the computer and omg it sounds nice! And she got one of those automatic mixer glasses for my protein shakes :) I keep stealing hers to use. No more chunks of protein powder! Huzzah!

So now I have my music back, and I can sip on chunk free shakes lol

See ya tomorrow!