what happened when i was little. in 2017. got it.

so this isn’t something i talk about, a lot and i only refer to it as such. ‘when i was little’. um. ..........so a few of the students who weren’t uh nice to me. 2 of them were minorities. one guy was white. [i’m white.]. His mom was really nice. and i just. it’s interesting that she was so nice when he, wasn’t. She’d been to africa. and i think they had a cat maybe. i wonder if like. she knew, what was going on..........and like what she’d think of it. i don’t know how much the teachers knew......i think they knew i cried a lot. from what i recall they didn’t do much about it. iI was a public school in the ‘90’s if that means anything. [actually it’s still open.]. i’m not sure. if the second guy we had for principle if he manipulated them......or if he..........like if they were scared of him.........but he uh. he wasn’t that great a guy. [obviously. if he blamed me for what happened.].
yeah um school was hard.back then, maybe not so much academically as like.socially for me. i didn’t change schools and maybe that would’ve been taking the easy way out.
the reason.actually [well ok a reason] i use the bathroom stalls at the end is cause of something that happened when i was little. i’ve since blocked out that event but i know what happened.
One guy, who didn’t say much to me. i think maybe he’d been abused. and i only know that cause one day he came to school and he had a bruise. i don’t think i ever said anything about it and i don’t remember hearing talk about it.........
and another guy. He was a big guy. like not tall but like.big i remember that he’d ask ‘are you gonna eat that?’. he got suspended and then maybe expelled. for what i don’t remember.
so maybe. it wasn’t entirely about race. considering the white guy.......actually no that’s a thing and i think it’s called ‘colorism’.
karlye, was nice to me. but evidently she had problems later on in life. she’d been adopted which i didn’t know untill recently. [well. maybe for some people that’s not a problem.]. it never bothered me i just.didn’t know much about it. and i still don’t. um. Her father had died of a heart attack when she was 9. but i always thought........she meant her biological dad. she’d been to see ‘showboat’ um she had 2 dogs 2 airdales. i never actually met her mom. the blue eyed blonde. her mom seemed.cold.
yeah um later on in life karlye ran off w/ her then boyfriend.
it’s really weird, writing about this in this much detail. um wow.
yeah there was another guy. his mother was from Iraq. The guy I’d mentioned above the one who didn’t say much to me. well from what i recall he didn’t talk about me either.
and yet. they didn’t say much to karlye. but me...........oh things happened to me. but i mean. i’m small i’ve always been small. not that that’s a reason to do anything, to someone. and i was quiet and nonconfrontational which........um. apparently they thought there was ‘something wrong with’. and um.