Wannabe stoner in Adventures in paradise

Well, I think any chance of management (even if I wanted it) at this job was thrown out the window today at work. I burst into tears about two and a half hours into my shift. Uncontrollable crying, breathing hard, sniffling, sobbing, not making any sense.
My store manager had called my name as I walked past, but I didn’t want him to see I was crying so I ignored him. Other staff called out my name also. Then they kinda of chased me down haha. I stopped in the aisle. I wasn’t going anywhere in particular. My store manager asked what was wrong and I sobbed through tears, “I’m… just emotional.... …so… sick of… being sore!”
My store manager then suggested, “You feel like you’re useless,” as though it was more of a statement than a question, and he was right.
He then said, “What I can do is send you home sick, take today as a sick day to go home and try to feel better, if you like.”
Man, they are trying everything not to submit those work-compo forms!
I was sore, I knew that, but I knew I could still do my work. I just needed to get it together. There’s no way I could serve customers in the state I was. I looked like a crazed mad-man.
My grocery manager suggested I go take a break and that’s exactly what I did. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror.
The person looking back at me, didn’t even look like me. I didn’t recognize myself.
I am NOT a pretty crier. When I cry, my blue eyes basically turn red. Bloodshot to the max. I seriously looked like I’d been smoking about 20 joints before starting my shift. Maybe a couple of injections of heroin whilst I was at it. Anyone who looked at me would have immediately thought, “What. A. Junkie!”

I must’ve been in there for about 10 minutes, washing my face, telling myself to get it together. My back is just SO tight. I washed my face a few more times and then went out to the lunch room and sat down. I then Googled the side effects of one of the medications I was on, and two of them stood out - Dizziness (yup!) and Swings Of Mood (LOL).
Well then. At least I had an excuse now.

Anyway, I didn’t go home sick. I got through the shift. I did help one customer shortly after and I could tell by his body language that he was shocked at how I looked.
I only WISH I was stoned, buddy.

Last updated January 12, 2018