Merry Christmas, asshole family in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

Due to my sister in law Lesa being a high risk pregnancy she will be bedridden for the next 8 months. I didnt see her for Christmas because i visited my moms family which i regretted immediately. Nothing is like visiting to remind yourself why you avoid these assholes during the year.

Mom decided to accuse Talan of being an alcoholic and a child in front of her entire family of course they believed her.

She also went on how she can find me a better. Last time i dated a man she suggested for me i was in a physical, and psychologically abusive relationship that also drove me to attempt suicide. I lost a baby i didnt know i was pregnant with.The man beat me and cheated in my early 20s. I gave Alan and his mistress Gwen the very engagement ring he asked to marry me with and left town because i feared they would kill me. They are now in a open marriage. Way to go assholes.Yeah mom you got fucking great taste in men afterall! When Alan was beating me dad was beating me too because he didnt approve of my boyfriend..well your wife picked him so yeah! Never did i let mom be the match maker again. Mommy doesnt always know best.
I tried to buy a rebel camera when i worked at kmart last year i couldnt afford it so mom bought it. Now she holds it over my head to try to get her way. Due to the fact this was the 3rd time she allowed me to hold it i struggled to figure out how to take pictures. Mom complained its your camera why dont you know? Since she couldnt figure out how to take pictures i took them soon as the party is over she took claim to the camera again wouldnt even let me download the pictures on my camera. Gee thanks mom. I create memories she takes them away. Merry Christmas to me not only was i badly treated but i cant have my pictures either.

Mom gave me gloves i needed and a wrap i told her i didnt want. She threw in the car saying i will use it if i like it or not. Fine Ziggy and Harley can sleep on it since she has to have her way. My cats will love it!

When Talan asked to marry me on Thanksgiving i decided i will not ask my parents for a single penny for the wedding. They dont like Talan told me long ago over and over again. Dad everyday says he wishes Talan was dead..nothing new he says that about me all the time. Mom always reminds me she doesnt like him everyday. I remind her i am grown let me marry who the hell i want.

I just want to get eloped at the court house not deal with wedding planning or bills. I dont need a show. Apparently Talan wants a wedding for family and friends. I of course will be assigned all the bullshit work.

My friends are excited wanting to help me plan. I dont have any money in savings struggling to get by as it is. I have tried on ridiculous price wedding dresses and thought i rather pay the bills thanks. I have a beautiful black wedding dress i bought from Goodwill for $10 but it isnt traditional. Never once did i claim my life traditional.Bobbi Dawson offered me her dress for free. I thanked her for her kindness. I honestly think God will strike me dead if i wear white. I am not pure who would i try to fool?! Anyone who knows me knows i am not.

Companies hype up weddings then spike up prices to take advantage. Girls dream of a big wedding and go over budget to put on a show off for family who dont even matter in your life anyway. Anyone who knows me knows i struggle to get from paycheck to paycheck. Thousand to rent a space to get married in. Bitch are you drunk? Hundreds for cake? Na screw that. Not only do i get me a dress but got to get my friends size listen to them whine the dress is ugly.There isnt enough alcohol in the world to psych me up for this planning shit. My friends are excited i keep looking over my shoulder at Talan reminding him the court house is easier!

If it was up to me a bbq, by a pool. Get married get all the pictures, take friends target practicing at the shooting range then slip into bathingsuits go swimming, a slicky slide, and water guns. All ages all out water battle!

Honeymoon? In a tent at Summersvilles Lake for a week. In the 4 years of dating Talan and i could never afford a vacation. I plan to shut off the phones live in peace away from dramatic people for a bit. Maybe visit the Summersvilles lake lighthouse. I cant afford to go to the ocean so i guess this will have to do. I want to walk to the top with him.

It would be fun to visit Organ Cave in Lewisburg. I also would like to go somewhere to mine for gemstones or even be taught to mine for gold. I want experiences that wont bankrupt me.

Merry Christmas. Talan works today. I dont work again till the 3rd. I am trying not to spend much because i know wills are coming.

I am laying on the bed typing this. Ziggy my cat keeps attacking my hand when i type so if this is misspelled you know what happened. One of the many joys of having a cat! Yet i like cats better than most people. I got to go play with a cat now..bye