Currency in Riverdale

Had everything else so young Only wanted love like it was a currency Became the only thing that mattered to me Wanted it so bad I played dumb Turned out it I just had to pretend That what we had was fake It really was just a means to an end Love was something I never really had I was blind to the signs Because I craved it so bad Didn't consider the source Took it from where I thought I could get it I was done with fucking around Forget it Missing an illusion Sometimes I still think I would still settle for that Hoping that the day will come Where even if you were to come back I could truly believe I didn't need it from you Every day I get closer to what for now seems like a total fantasy Because right now I still feel so empty Unfulfilled Can hardly get up Now that I don't feel motivated by your love I carry on Mostly just trying to forget I'm so sick of lementing on such a bittersweet story That ended in disaster Embarassed that I entangled myself with someone like you Angry about all the shit you put me through I ask myself for what? Left with wisdom A broken heart Jaded Wondering if I will question everything from the next dude My heart won't listen To the platitudes my mind gives It wants it's fix So confused So used Hard to believe Even if I do feel peace A reprieve It just doesn't all match up Yet I wish it would all feel in sync I tell people I'm fine But inside I am still so upset I don't know if I will ever fully come to terms With having the wind knocked out of my sails Feeling so powerless This is no ordinary grief It's one that cycles round and round Up and down Anger sadness Hurt Feel so betrayed And I'll never know completely why? All I have on my side is time