think i got it figured out. that night. in 2017. got it.

right so as put. i think i got it figured out. that night.

so for those who don’t know. a little over 4.5 yrs. ago i.almost wasn’t here. i don’t remember a whole lot of that night. evan was there. and apparently it was a Sun. it was may 3rd. now so this isn’t something i talk about a whole lot. it’s also understandably hard for me.to.
yeah so i’d 2 cups of wine. not so unusual. [i wish i were drunk right now. this is that hard to talk about.]. and evan & i got into an argument about me.not having sex w/ him. [which is funny bc like in april of that yr. we almost.did it had sex.]. and so. i had marigold seeds [which, by the way, didn’t do shit for me] and i.unfortunately OD’d. on benadryl.
we stayed in my apt. that night. he stayed w/ me apparently neither of us slept. he gave me milk which, i don’t remember at all. milk, of all things.
i hadn’t eaten in 2 days and it was just.a combination of things of everything. my body couldn’t handle it my soul couldn’t handle it. i’ve looked it up over time since and i.i don’t think i went into a coma. i think it was just low blood sugar, the OD, the pills, the alcohol.......and all of the other stuff. and my body going haywire.
i’d OD’d before but never quite like that.
i um. yeah. i don’t talk about it.
so. um. yeah..........there.it all is.
oh ow.

Last updated July 17, 2018