PMDD made me debate suicide in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

My pms was so bad today i had to leave work. My entire body ached, i was exhausted wanted to cry. I woke up regretting being alive. Came into work the smallest issues got on my nerves. They were testing a new alarm at work. When it was ringing i wanted to destroy every bell to make the noise stop. I got pain meds but the pain continued i tapped out went home.

My male boss thought i had the flu. No i have 2 weeks of PMDD. I am so exhausted earlier this week i talked to my fiance about wanting to kill myself to avoid the 2 hellish weeks of pms. I rocked back and forth crying reminding myself its just the hormones. When my period stops hell wont come back for 14 days.

I have no insurance and not enough money to pay to go to the gynecologist. I am going to try again to get insurance. Over the counter meds dont work for PMDD pain. I cant take birth control pills because it causes my blood pressure to spike. Dr said if my blood pressure stays that high i will have a stroke.

I ran out of menstradol. I am going to order more. It is only pill i found that decreases my extreme pain.

My boyfriend accuses me of being crazy. I act crazy when i am hormonal. Its like living hell on earth. I hope they find treatment soon.

Last updated November 04, 2017