Halloween ruined,pms insanity in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

Halloween the one holiday i look forward to. I worked. Spent almost my entire paycheck on rent after Talan promised to help me. He overdrafted his bank account paying internet. I told him cant afford groceries. He pushed to get them. He spent less than $20 but it left my account with $50. Making it hard to afford gas to make it 45 minutes just one way to work and 45 minutes back.

We had food to last till payday but he wanted pizza. I cried borrowed money from mom to wake it to work till payday. She mentioned i owed her payment on mobile home. I cried for not having that.

I cried for missing Halloween i cried for Talan screaming about my mom. I cried he called his mom about our financial bind. I cried mom called me a charity case.

I cried PMS has made me suicidal. I know its just hormones so i cry but dont listen to the voices telling me to harm myself instead i remind myself next year will be different. I remind myself these hormones make me crazy.