Poor depressed charity case. in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

I spent halloween day at work. Spent the afternoon crying. Talan due to leg injuries works very little. I work my ass off. He overdrafted his account to pay power bills. He often halfs the rent with me but he couldnt. I spent almost my entire paycheck to pay the landlord but $38.

Talan wanted to go grocery shopping. I told him just get bread and me pads. He kept tossing stuff in saying it’s ok to overdraft. He was unhappy cause i told him we still have groceries at home. I had him put most back reminded him we need gas to make it to work this week. He only works 1 hour for bus duty and 2 days this week. He isnt allowed to work fulltime till the doctor clears him. He missed the appointment cause he didn’t have enough money for gas.

I asked mom for $20 for gas till end of the week. She reminded me i owe her $600 because i am supposed to pay her $200 a month as payments for the mobile home. I told her check my account i got less than $38 till payday i gave almost all my check to pay the rent.

She announced to her fellow workers how i am a charity case humiliating me. I broke down and cried trying to give it back as people stared at us i tried to give it back. She announced i was a failure how can i work a fulltime job and not get by. I went to my car and cried.
I spent Halloween crying telling Talan i didnt come into this world to just pay bills and die. I told him i am sick of this life. I know its just my pms talking. He told me i am crazy. I told him its hormonal because of pms. He demanded me to see a psychiatrists i asked him. how do you do that without insurance?

I missed Halloween because i cried entire time. Next time i need money to get to work i will just call in. I got a 45 minute drive one way. My car uses 1/4 tank of gas. Tired of slaving away for nothing.

My sister in law Lesa and brother called me asking to borrow money i told them i didnt have it. I need money to make it till end of the week till payday.