Thoughts and Uneasiness in In My World

We keep moving to different places to write because people in our lives--our real lives--find where we've been writing. We have to keep moving and changing sites to be able to write our thoughts, uncensored. We're running away from the one thing we never want to face: The internet isn't safe. Someone will always find you.

There are no "secret" accounts. Someone will always know exactly who it is that is writing. Maybe that is why I've been having such a hard time posting here. OpenDiary felt safe at first, but I never used a secret username. I just used cheesyemoheart...Just like every other account of mine. I should have used a different name here..a different identity. I didn't and now I can't. Anything I write here can be found with a simple google search. That makes me feel just so...uncomfortable. Unsafe. How can I write my innermost thoughts knowing that anyone (everyone) can find it?

How do I write about people I know and things that hurt me when the people who are hurting me can just find the things I've written? They'll just use them against me, like they always do. Even my "secret" Tumblr has been compromised. Where do I go now? ProseBox seems like a great new possibility...but it feels so unsafe. I don't want to write friends only entries because the purpose of me writing here in the first place was to get feedback from strangers. That was the point. Strangers. People who could give me an outside opinion without just making the situation worse.

I think I will write here anyway...And anyone who knows me and is offended/hurt/whatever can seriously go away...because this is my new place to write. To tell someone, anyone, everyone....everything. To get things off my chest...

...or I'll just give up and go back to a pencil/paper diary where no one will see it unless I give it to them.