Tuesday Morning in New Diary

Well I am up. Life is good. I had a very off day yesterday. I felt kind of anxious. Recertification is up . This is when we have to renew or lease. I have to get proof of income from Social Security. I am going to do that today. This means getting on the van and going over to Steubenville. Of courser I worried about getting out of my apartment. I worried about that all afternoon. Anxiety was very high. Then add that to lack of sleep. I felt very wired and tired at the same time. This was not a good feeling.

My worker didn’t come yesterday. That also put me off. It meant a break in the routine. Of course I worried about that. Right away I started thinking she was going to drop me as a client. Then I imagined all kinds of stuff. A normal man would have just gone about his business. But I am not normal. I start thinking all kinds of crazy stuff. Then I am in a full blown state of anxiety.

It was a little warmer in my apartment yesterday. Still I felt cold. It wasn’t all that cold in here but I felt so cold over the weekend. I was really miserable. Monday was not so bad. I was grateful for some heat.

I am almost finished with that one history book Road to Disunion Vol 11 Confederates Triumphant by William H Freehling. I really enjoyed this author. I think I’m going to start reading Stephen Ambrose next. He is another favorite historian

Well life is good. It is good to be alive