Friday Morning in New Diary

I am up and blessed with another day. I had a good day yesterday. I read most of the day. I wasn’t thinking about anything. I wasn’t depressed or anxious. I just enjoyed my time with my book.

I stopped reading around 4 I fixed a tv dinner. I turned on Ellen and then watched the evening news. I watched Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune. Then I turned on Paranormal Witness. I watched a couple of shows I kind of enjoyed that I will have to check it out again . I went to bed around eleven .

Well my worker came yesterday. I got some bad news. She might not be able to taker me places anymore. An another client in the building was telling her that her work knows everything she does. I was saying I don’t want to see you get fired. She talked to me about this waver program. If I were on this waver program then she could take me places. She called her work and they referred her to this one person down there. She never called back.

I was telling Kelly I have other transportation I can always use the van service. I said they can take me to the bank and Wal Mart. But she will not go to Gumby’s for cigars. Kelly was telling me that she will still take me on the first. She might have to do it on her off hours She can take me on her own time and that way they can’t say anything about it. I opted to go with Kelly on the first

I called Chocolatechip. I asked if she had Connie’s phone number I would like to go to Wal Mart and asked if she would like to go with me. She said she could do that. She was seeing Connie this afternoon for a trip She will ask her . When she got back she called me and said Connie will be picking us up; at 1:15 Friday afternoon. I said that was fine.

I was doing great all day yesterday. Then in the evening I started thinking about going out on the van and leaving my apartment. Anxiety got the better of me I tried some deep breathing exercises. I diverted my thoughts by playing chess and watching that spooky tv show. That helped I was getting sleepy so I lied down on the couch and fell a sleep.

I plan on taking an anxiety pill today before I go out. Hopefully that will help me do what I have to do.