First entry in New Diary

Open Diary is shutting down It is very sad because I've been writing diaries on that site for over ten years. I guess I will be writing on Prose Box. I decided to make thi9ngs public I hope they will things will be going smoothly

We have been having some very cold weather here in West Virginia. Temperatures have been below zero yesterday. I've been shut in my nice warm apartmenbt for two weeks. I have cabin fever big time. We had a spell of very cold weather earlier this week. I started to get in a very bad shape and after seven years I started smoking agai8n. One of the few places I've been this month was to a place in town called Gumby's and I bought two cartons of the cheapest cigars available Smoking must have down something for me because when I started smoking I felt so happy. Now I am kicking myself in the ass for breaking down because I can hardly afford to feed this habit. I blame it all on the feeling of being trapped in my apartment

Normally I really don't mind staying in my apartment. I have a computer and I have a blast with it. I stock up on ebooks at the first of the month and I get a lot of pleasure out of reading. It is just the idea of being shut in that bothers me. I like to go outside and sit once in a while but the cold weather made doing that much impossible. I started to feel like I was trapped in my apartment. Thinking like that was what did me in.

January has been a very bad month. I am glad to see the end of it. I will be getting my check tomorrow and I will be going out. I'm headed for the bank, city building and Wal Mart. I am looking forward to getting out of this loony bin. I will also be glad to get back home.

I guess I had a lot of trouble with depression In January. But I am ok. Life is good. I've learned through therapy about how to control ones thinking. Whenever I start thinking about negative things about the weather I replace the negative self talk with positive talk. I remind myself of all the good things in my life and I am truly blessed. I have a nice warm apartment. I have my meds. I have food to eat and clothes to wear. More important I have a wonderful girlfriend. I don't have to be out in this nasty weather. I don'[t have to worry about shoveling snow. I have a computer, internet connection and plenty of books to read. Life really is good.

12:05 pm I am down at my girlfriend's apartment. She has the news on. Big story of the day is the weather. It is getting warmer. Temperatures were above zero today and it was not snowing. Best news of the day is it will be warmer tomorrow. It is supposed to be in above freezing. This is great news because we got to go out. I cant say how glad I will be to get out of this place for a while. We plan going to Wal Mart and Subway then do some shopping.