The Fatigue you Feel in Your Bones... in All of Me

It has settled in. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo old and exhausted right now. TODAY IS MY FRIDAY! I am going home Saturday to see my Dad for Father’s Day. I need to find a present for him.

I missed pole again last night:( I was so tired lol. I barely slept again. I am taking melatonin and it worked for a second, but now it doesn’t.

Dream last night was that I was at a conference where I had to share some of my writing and I had a paper journal. I walked away to dig through a bin of clothing because I had just finished swimming and had wet clothes on. I found a pair of corduroy pants and a green shirt and I was crying that they didn’t match. I put them on anyway. I returned to my seat and my mom was reading my journal, including this really awful entry I had written about her. She was sullen. I felt so incredibly guilty. My sister was yelling that my mom shouldn’t have read my journal anyway. I read some poem to a crowd of people, apologized to my mom, grabbed my journal, and went to the Atlanta Aquarium. That part isn’t as random as it perhaps sounds. I was talking to a guy about going to the Atlanta Aquarium before I fell asleep, because he used to live there. It’s the biggest aquarium in America, I think. I really wanna go and look at the fishies. I don’t go to zoos because the animals in captivity make me sad, so I probably shouldn’t go to aquariums- especially if they have dolphins and orcas, etc. I am definitely opposed to that.

I AM SO TIRED. I WANT TO GO TO BED. ONLY THREE HOURS LEFT UNTIL I AM OFF WORK!