Bring On the Wonder in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write

It was purely by chance that the end of Open Diary coincided with me getting back in touch with a writer whom I began following a few years ago. Aside from just the entries he wrote, we began e-mailing each other. Before you think anything too much, he lived on the other side of the world... at least, Australia seems like the other side of the world. He was quite a bit younger than I was (well, we still have that age gap) but I loved hearing his perspective on things because when he would describe them to me, it was like I was seeing the world for the first time all over again. I'm told this is what those disgusting heterosexuals feel when they have... ick... children.

We kept in touch for almost a year and then he vanished. I was very sad and kept hoping that someday we would reestablish contact.

Someday turned out to be Monday.

I'm not someone who is "hip" to technology. In fact, that was my favorite thing about Open Diary... it really hadn't changed too much since when I started in 1999, so I was able to feel like a capable techie when I was there. (Unlike this site... I was trying to italicize something, but I just gave up in frustration. Who knew italics would be my undoing?) It turns out, he's not really big into technology either. He did mess age me a quick little blurb about living in New Zealand now and going on a cross-country trip with his boyfriend. Then he sent me a picture of himself doing a handstand on the edge of a cliff.

Part of the reason he's so important was because his perspective and that "seeing everything new" bullshit that I mentioned earlier was one of the major reasons I realized that I was now open to the possibility of a relationship. I realized that even though we were only about six years apart, I had become a bitter fossil compared to his expressions of wonder. I didn't really follow through with my threat of partnering with someone until a year later while I was in Paris, and didn't become mildly successful at relationship stuff until about a month ago, but the ball started rolling there.

That's what I missed. That's what I needed at that moment. I needed someone to remind me that life is full of possibilities and that everything needn't be so damned serious and depressing all the time. For years, it was my job to make people laugh, but in the process I forgot how to laugh for myself. Well, things are better and I want Logan to know how much he helped me.

And I hope our unorthodox friendship continues... who knows, maybe now I'll be inspired to train myself so I can do a handstand on a cliff! Well, that's a little too ambitious, but at the very least, maybe the armrest on my couch.