Sick Again... in Daisy's Day

I've been sick again for about 3.5 weeks. It sucks. It started as a sinus infection and moved into my chest about 2 days later. I tried waiting it out and just taking otc meds like mucinex for the first 2 weeks but it just wasn't getting any better so I finally went to the dr. I had my sinus infection and asthmatic bronchitis and fluid in my ears. Lovely. So I got a week of prednisone with a week of levaquin plus like 15 days of an inhaler with more steroids in it. I was feeling better but then the last day of my pills it hit again and had more sinus pressure and my ears started stopping up and hurting. So she called me in another week of prednisone and levaquin. I'm about 3 days into this round and really hoping this clears up. It's also making my throat super sore and dry. I hate my sinuses.

Anyways.... more going on... we told all the parents about the divorce. When we told my parents my mother immediately jumped down my throat and blamed me for everything and just acted crazy. That was Monday... yesterday she called to apologize. I dunno if I'm really over it bc she really hurt my feelings on Monday. My dad just never said a word and still hasn't. Hubby of course isn't happy with my decision but like I said I've got to take care of me. I'm tired of feeling like I'm taking care of a kid and not actually having one. I'm tired of not having an affectionate spouse. I'm tired of feeling not pretty and not worth the effort. I'm tired of him only doing things bc I specifically tell him or bc I'm mad. Heck I'm tired of being mad all the time. His most recent act or lack there of that made me fly off the handle was when I got his tax form from the cafe he works at to find out that he never dealt with it back in like August when I told him... so they didn't withhold any federal taxes on him there. So I'm like now I'm going to have to pay taxes on another 4000 and my tax refund will be lower than I expected. And I planned on using that money to work on the house. So needless to say I was pissed.

I'm spending even more time with W. We don't generally spend the night apart. We did one day this past week bc hubby wanted to spend time with me. I really disliked not having him sleeping next to me. He's very attentive and sweet to me. He's always hugging and touching and kissing me. Always telling me I'm cute and his favorite. He helps me clean up. He even took the dogs out the other night and told me to stay in bc it's too cold and I'm sick. He takes me grocery shopping and pays for groceries part of the time. He tries to help me cook he doesn't just leave me alone in the kitchen and expect me to do everything. I'm not saying he's perfect or anything but he's awfully good to me.

Last weekend he even went to home depot with me and helped me get new light bulbs for the fluorescent lights downstairs and new toilet kits and a new aerator for the sink and yeah he doesn't really know much in the way of fixing things but he went around and handed me tools and put in the light bulbs and stuff. And I managed to change both the toilet kits by myself. I also found a new bathroom vanity that I like for around $280 so I'm looking into redoing the whole bathroom and how much a new tub and stuff will cost. So once it warms up I'm going to tackle that project. I think I can manage with some help. Right now it's only maybe 10 degrees out so need to wait. I also think all the insulation in the garage ceiling could use replacing so I need to see how much insulation costs. Plus I'm sure my plumbing is all kinds of fucked and I'll need to replace a good portion of it.

My dad thinks I should just fix small things and sell it which is good and all except I don't think I can afford to sell and move for a few more years and bath and kitchen remodels do help the value.

I think I've gone on enough. But I'm happier and less stressed now that I've told my parents.