The drama continues. in Since OD is shutting down....

He’s been messaging my friend since yesterday. He started by saying how he fessed up to his mistakes and now will be paying for it for the next 5 years. I guess he said he was hoping I would have reconsidered the RO and he could have made love to me and spent the night. Saying he missed me. Blah blah blah.

Today he said that supposedly his little sister has been the one responding when I’ve messaged his Mom and all this nonsense. Later this evening, his Mom messaged me saying, “I’m kinda leery about talking with you now. Since that bullshit with my boy, my loyalties with him first, baby second. This made my blood boil. It basically told me that she’s going to back him no matter what and the RO is bullshit.

I have done EVERYTHING in my power to get along with him and his family and yet, I’m still the fucking bad guy. I didn’t even respond to her, I blocked her instead. I don’t know why these people feel it’s necessary to have drama and not even attempt to get along with me but I’m seriously done trying. I’m also irritated that he said to my friend that he didn’t want his Mom talking to me because he’s scared he’d end up in jail for it but he’s talking to my friend when the judge said he was PROHIBITED from fucking talking to her! I love how he wants everything his way.

All of this feels like a nightmare that I’m trying to wake up from. I am so angry that I’m bringing a child into this world with this degree of drama when I want nothing but the best for her. I’m honestly hoping him and his family don’t have much to do with her because I don’t know how the fuck I’d cope with constant drama and negativity for the next 18 years. All of this makes me even more glad I got the RO and I’m honestly considering not pushing for him to be acknowledged as the Father. The couple hundred dollars a month wouldn’t be worth my sanity. I’d rather work 2 jobs.

I just wish I knew what the fuck to do. I know that CS is for my daughter that it’s her money but I honestly don’t see him paying it anyway and I’d rather not receive it because I just know that in the eyes of his family, that will make me some kind of money hungry bitch. He really wants to be there for the birth but we aren’t together and I feel that it’s just for me and my family to experience without the threat of drama and chaos.

I’m going to bed.