My Fuck Boys in Current Events

Suddenly I’m a life coach to the fuck boys I work with. I know “kids” look up to me and such but not this many attractive straight guys at once. It’s just 3 but I’m in my dirty 30s and they give me unnatural thoughts. Kyle is ready to face his anxiety disorder. Colin is getting over rejection with his revenge body and Trent just broke up with his high school sweetheart. All three are gorgeous specimens of male goodness and all three hit me up for life advice all day today. I use to be good at this and maybe I still got it. Let’s see how this all pans out for them.

I decided to pretend like there was no tension between Zach and I during our shift on Sunday. He seemed so lost and sad lately and he didn’t even deny that on Saturday when I asked if he was okay. On Sunday he was acting like he was catching up with an old friend. “Remember that time when we…” I can feel his eyes on me. Starring at me. Watching me when I’m talking to other people. Sometimes when I lock eyes with him he doesn’t bother to look away. He raises his eyebrows like he is trying to communicate with me. I wish I knew what was going on inside that head of his sometimes. My instincts tell me that he is just wondering the same about me. Why is Tom so distant. Why won’t he even look at me. A part of me is saying that it is nothing. I’m crazy. Another part of me is saying that he has just been trying to get my attention any way that he can. I asked him not to flirt with me so he wants to make me jealous instead. For his own validation. Either way I feel like I moved on. I at least don’t have that heavy heart I been dragging around everywhere. I just want to get my own revenge body and get myself out there this summer. Got to build up some self esteem and build it up fast.