Today is another day in In other news

Firstly, I have to thank you all for your notes on my last entry. They were very much appreciated.

I’m still feeling a bit of emotional aftershock from yesterday I think. It was definitely the most difficult work day I’ve had in a long time. I’m sure until we hear that he’s passed away we’ll all be thinking of him and his family and wondering how they’re all coping.

Yesterday also marked 6 years since my mum was diagnosed with her cancer. As always, all I can be thankful for is how completely lucky we all are that she had chemo and has made an amazing recovery. In a lot of ways it’s like it never happened, she’s so ‘back to normal’.

I’d like to think it makes me that little bit more compassionate towards my patients and their families. I’d like to think knowing what they’re going through, how they’re feeling, how completely terrifying it is, makes me that bit more understanding.

I honestly don’t know what I would do without my mum. Keeping it a secret for 10 months that we were trying for a baby nearly killed me. I was consumed with guilt every time I saw her that I had something I wasn’t telling her. She’s been so supportive with everything that’s been going on, even coming to sit in the docs with me when all I’m going for is a blood test.

I have a friend who lost her mum and remember one New Year’s Eve, she was a little emotional after having a couple of drinks and said she couldn’t believe she’d met the love of her life and her mum wasn’t there to see how happy she was. This was before mum was ill, but I remember hugging her and crying with her.

I guess it’s never a bad thing to be reminded of how precious our relationships with our loved ones are.

Xx