Closer in Book Four: Ichi-no-Tani 2017

174 entries to catch up on.

I am fairly confident we’ll be okay. Wife’s sewing room, kitchen, bedroom… only rooms that still have a significant amount of things in them. I am excited to get up (down) to the new place and get things rolling.

My mind has been working again in weird ways. Like… just… randomly firing but hitting on things.

Honestly… and no idea how/if this would even be possible… but… I really hope that, in the next 9 months, I can find a psycho-therapist for talk therapy. My regrets about how my life turned out post my abusive relationship is… growing again.
My mom, who was here Thur/Fri helping us clean (which I still feel awful about… my wife sewing, me moving boxes, my mom cleaning bathrooms… but Mom encouraged Wife to sew since the deadline of sewing project is April 1, but.... meh).
My mom mentioned how in a lot of ways I’ve always been slow. Not mentally but socially. Like… I was able to read and discuss mental things but I was unable to understand “juvenile humor” until I was in my mid teens. Example: I had no idea why people laughed at the number 69 until I was 15.
Apparently, all of that was made worse by my abusive relationship. I’ve… always been bad… behind… on social situations when it comes to dating. So… yeah. I still have a lot of regrets and the like from my dating days. They’re swimming around my head a lot. It can’t be a good thing.