Keeping My Goals on the DL in Current Events

I don’t want my narrative to be about a boy.
I do have other things going on. A friend of mine is part of an art exhibit tonight. I might go. If I don’t I will just ask him all about it because it is something I might be interested in doing in the near future. I have a few of my paintings ready to be auctioned off on Facebook so I can afford bigger better equipment. I have come a long way with my artwork and still have a long way to go but big things have small beginnings. I only started 7 years ago when I had a few friends over one night. They were boring me to death so I randomly painted something from the stuff I left out when I was painting my pottery all black. I kept going with it and my family got supportive one Christmas and bought me canvases and an artisan and gift cards to Michaels and I was working with construction paper and dollar store supplies before then so…
Here is the OG

I had booked a week off last December to write a novel that I had been talking about for about a decade now. It is all based on dreams that I was getting back when my anxiety disorder came to be. The story is of a biblical nature and it freaks everybody out to the point of tears and it will be a good read if I ever get it on paper. It all started when a young man was beheaded on a greyhound bus outside my city. That was over a decade ago but my dreams had turned that into an epic story about delivering the third testament to humanity. However I didn’t realize that my roommates took the same week off so I didn’t get to be alone enough to get it started. 2017 goals though.

I have been slaving away at improving my physical appearance. I want to return to the modeling agency I applied at in my early 20s that offered me some free acting lessons which I never followed up on. I don’t necessarily want free anything but they did get excited about my look and said that there was a high demand for people of my ethnicity but “you guys are usually… well you know” and I knew that the ending to that sentence was ugly. My acne scars are halfway gone and thanks to my diet and exercise I have never been in such good shape. I don’t know what my expectations are exactly but I want to do something extra to break out of this city.
So basically I am just trying to get up the nerve to launch myself into something this year. I am not as focused as I want to be or as ambitious but it is a lot better without my anti-anxiety and anti-depression medication.