Ultrasound. in Since OD is shutting down....

So my friend came with me. It was just her and I of course. My family of course just could not bring themselves to care enough to be there. My brother asked how it went and I sent him a long message about how I felt. I’m just done.

I just appreciate my family who aren’t blood who have actually been there for me and make me feel loved and important. I definitely don’t get that from my blood family.

It was really neat seeing my little one moving around. It makes it just so real and so exciting. I’m glad that she’s so active and everything is looking really good. I do need to call my OB tomorrow and have them up my insulin dose because my blood sugars are staying high through the day after meals so I’m getting crazy ass headaches. I’m currently guzzling water to get it back down.

It’s really hard for me to know that my daughter’s Dad isn’t around because he left. He wasn’t going to change his mind to stay because he didn’t want to live here. It’s hard for me that my family couldn’t give a fuck less. It’s hard to not get super upset when I’m constantly let down by the people who should care the most but I need to focus on my friends that do care. My friend seriously drove 5 hours to come for my ultrasound. I never thought anyone would do that for me and she did. I totally appreciate it more than she’ll ever know.

I’m feeling really down and have a massive headache. It’s only about 7pm but I want to lay down and go to bed. I’m happy I got to see my baby but sad that no one cared to be there other than my friend. It’s true when they say you find out who your friends are, and in my case my family too.

Goodnight.