Good weekend. in Since OD is shutting down....

I only worked about 20 hours last week because it was so dead. I didn’t make much all week and was glad to get out of there by 4 on Saturday for little one’s birthday party. We had a really fun time and she talked me into spending the night. I didn’t want to because I didn’t have pajamas but I wasn’t about to let her down. She was definitely a bed hog and I guess my brother and his girlfriend came in and moved her at some point because I was about to fall off my side LOL.

She loved her little party and I’m hoping they will let me take her overnight soon. She was so glad that I came and even told her Mom that. I was glad I didn’t miss her party on top of missing her birthday. We had so much fun swimming, eating cake, and just being with her for her day.

My Mom came yesterday and took me to eat Chinese. I was super stoked that it was just us. I guess my Dad was sick apparently and my little brother didn’t want to come. We ate a lot and then shopped some at Gordman’s and Goodwill. I told my Mom that I was glad she was my Mom because she’s such a fun person and I’m happy to have someone who loves me as much as she does. She tries as hard as she can and I do appreciate it.

I was so glad to finally get home yesterday and just lay on the couch and watch tv. I went to bed super early because I didn’t get a lot of sleep Saturday night and I was overly tired. I decided to Google about child support and paternity. Basically if the Dad hides out from being served, the case just sits. It can take a really long time to get anywhere if they make sure they don’t get served. Because Eric has mentioned not having a job and has talked so much about the baby not being his and signing over his rights, I see this being a long drawn-out process.

All my friends have made sure to tell me to not expect child support so I’m definitely preparing myself for that. I know that I’ll more than likely never see a fucking dime but I’ll make sure they have every address for him that I have and hopefully they’ll be able to track him down. I know that if they are on assistance they will be able to find him but if he chooses to not answer the door every time they come, there’s nothing anyone can do. I know that at some point he’s gonna want to see his kid but if he’s that adamant about hiding than he’s not going to be trusting enough to try.

This whole thing sucks and the one that’s going to suffer is my daughter. I definitely don’t want to spend any time dwelling on this because obviously it’s out of my control but it does suck knowing that it’s probably going to take a long time. It’s just so crazy to me that this guy wanted a baby with me, got me knocked up and is going to find every way he can to get out of being a Dad. I think it’s finally soaked in that kids aren’t free and it takes money to raise them and he’s too selfish for that.

I just have to wait and see how this all plays out. I hope that he does the right thing with paternity and plans to pay child support to help me with raising her but he’s a very selfish, stubborn person that doesn’t feel that he should have to do anything. I know that I’m on my own but I will do everything I can so that he contributes to his child. Sometimes I think about him and how much of a piece of shit he is and just want to cry. My daughter deserves an amazing guy that wants to be there for her, not someone who talks about signing over his rights.

Anyways, I need to get breakfast and mail back a bottle drying rack because it’s blue. I plan to do that soon because if not, I’m going to get charged for it. I’m not ready to leave my house just yet but I’m gonna have to get it done by the end of the day and then I plan to just lay around, watch tv, and take naps. I’m pretty sure I’m getting a cold too and that worries me because I can’t afford to miss work due to already being short on hours.

Time to get stuff done so I can relax for the rest of the day.