Not gay enough in Quick Thoughts

Stating my opinions is very much out of my comfort zone. I never pursued a post secondary education so I just don’t have the same degrees that my friends aren’t using so I just keep my mouth shut. I’m student debt free but I’m not smart. Anyway what I want to write about makes me a bad person but I need to get it off my chest.

Gay culture… or the gay scene? I think I got it all wrong. In my mind I do not define myself as sex. I’m not sex. I’m a person. I was that naive guy who joined Grindr to meet other people because making friends is fucking hard. Especially at my age. I tried to go make friends at a rainbow resource pflag center thing but the group discussions were sex. Safe sex. Better sex. AIDS and sex. I even tried to make friends in the club scene. That flop I won’t even blame on culture. I’m probably just horrible at getting gay people to like me. All my friends are straight. My guy friends used to be homophobic before they met me. I’m pretty chill. Anyway what I’m trying to say is that I feel like everything gay is everything sex and I’m just not sex. Is gay culture just sex? Or do I really got it twisted? I hate that I am that “bitter-gay-hating-queen” stereotype etc because I’m that one gay who hates having sex thrown in his face at every turn.