Cue The Crisis in Quick Thoughts

My midlife crisis is coming early. I have severe FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out). I don’t know what I am doing with my life. I haven’t even loved and lost. Everything just feels like it had been a complete waste. I’m a waste. I am wasting everything… I’m at least wasted.
I think I’m ready to pursue a counsellor or therapist to help me overcome myself. I used to feel like I was full of potential and capable of anything one day and now I feel nothing. Except this buzz.
I want to pursue the arts without feeling like I’m a joke at it. The way I am a joke about everything. I promise that I don’t feel that pathetic. I’m just having a moment of weakness. Which I might need right now. I need to want something for a change.