so i talked to my mom about it. the valerie thing. in 2017. got it.

right as put. so I talked to my mom about it the valerie thing. and i told her that valerie’s too nice. sure my mom’s nice too but at least she’s real. at least i don’t have to try and figure out what she’s really about cause i know. and whereas w/ valerie........well it’s like a really nice.er i mean.a house that looks really nice on the outside and is all perfect looking and you wonder.it’s almost like there’s something wrong w/ it. like there’s something wrong w/ something that looks that good. and that’s how it is w/ valerie. like it seems like there’s something wrong w/ someone who’s that nice. you know you watch a tv show and there’s a character that’s nice and you maybe think to yourself ‘well cmon no one’s that nice’. well you’d be wrong. but no that’s exact;y how it feels. is fictional is like valerie’s not a real person even though.she is. i didn’t tell my mom that last part though. So then she asks if I think joan’s too nice being my Aunt Joan. My Aunt Joan, who in the words of my mom has never met a stranger in her life. i’m so glad she’s not my mom.bc. i like that my mom’s low key. i guess that’s how Joan’s dad is too though I’ve never met him but i believe it. anyway no i don’t think joan is.but maybe that’s bc I’m not around her a lot which i’m ok w/. If I was then I probably would think she’s too nice.
um so. I told my mom a bit about what i’ve blooged er b er blogged* about here. that the reasons to see valerie are convention and appearances. and I explained to her the connection between keeping up appearances and my anxiety. my mom who is a surprisingly understanding woman. She asked ‘do you want to see valerie?’ well i feel like i should and to keep up appearances but no i don’t like.really want to, or anything not esp.
um so that happened Thurs.

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