so yesterday [yes again]. in 2017. got it.

so it’s now Sat. here which means that um.yesterday was Fri. right so um on Thurs. my mom tells me that my sister will be there at 10:30 fri. well she wasn’t. at about 10:40 my mom tells me my sister’s at the salon and will be there for an hr. well just as i’m done getting ready and am about to go out my sister gets there. well what do ya know. so then. She talks to mom for a bit. i’m in the rm. too. so we’re deciding where to go for lunch and my mom goes ‘mee-chees mee chees’. i think she just likes saying it which is ok cause it’s funny. i.like saying kitty. so we all go to micci’s.
um the guy reminds reminds me of james bay. you know the singer. [is there another one? well maybe there might be i don’t know]. yeah the guy was a little too nice. um lunch was nice. so my mom & I wanted to see ‘moana’. and so did my sister. well so I told her I can see it w/ mom and then see it w/ her and not tell her what happens. as my sister has plans that day er yesterday i mean. well when we’re back at my mom’s my mom & I decide to see it. i can see it w/ my mom or i can see it w/ my sister but either way i’m going to see the movie. see this is the problem i had w/ evan. on the days we were going to get together. it was like ‘maybe i’ll come’..........and he wouldn’t. so after awhile i stopped waiting around. and the other reason is if i did ever again have plans w/ him but then decided to do something w/ my parents sister on the same day. well i’d do the thing w/ him and not tell them about the evan thing [no cause i’m not stupid] they wouldn’t think i was hiding aything. evan’s not v. good at showing up apparently so.
um so but yes. moana. it was really good. yes. i reccomend it. My mom liked it she told me some parts were boring and some were interesting. i like hawaii and their stories and their whole.culture there. and.although actually it’s probably not set in hawaii. also the movie’s female driven. and being a woman i obviously relate to that. i think that’s a reason I didn’t like aladdin or the lion king. is cause they’re not female driven. also i don’t like the humour in the lion king. it reminded me of the little mermaid Moana i mean. [well all those disney movies are alike]. no i mean in that there was the dad and the daughter. well there was the mom too whereas in the little mermaid there wasn’t. in Moana she goes off to explore the ocean. even though she’s told not to. yeah that’s how it is for me too. you tell me not to do something and i’ll want to do it more esp. if it’s bad for me. like ‘don’t smoke’. [and actually i don’t smoke. and it really depends on what]. but if you want me not to smoke or w/e then actually.the way to get me to do that is to tell me to do it. no seriously that’ll work. it takes the temptation out of it. [i mean again i don’t. that’s just an example].
um so then.after Moana I went back to my mom’s got my stuff and went out again. The reason i don’t bring my grocery bags w/ me when i go to the movies is cause i don’t want to forget them there. and i’m always afraid i will. i have this theory that if i’m not touching something i’ll forget it. so i went to bed bath beyond.to get toothpaste. [cause.teeth. like i said i’m trying to do better only that’s not a thing. you either do or you don’t there is no try. it’s like when people go ‘well i’ll try and call you’. like physically for a lot of people it’s not all that difficult. or when people go ‘did someone try and call me?’ well they obviously succeeded. but anyway. yes. teeth. and doing better]. well i didn’t have enough to get 2 tubes and i don’t like just buying 1 of something so i told the lady nevermind. she somewhat talked down to me. oh so when we were getting our tickets for the movies the lady’s ‘1 adult and 1 child?’ ‘2 adults’ my mom corrects her. jeez i don’t look that young and that’s actually kindof an insult. i’ve been told i look at least 21. i’m 29 btw. when i was younger I hated when people told me i looked ‘so young’. then it was really an insult. that was before i turned 26. that’s why i don’t tell people that stuff cause i don’t know how they’ll take it. like i never talk about people’s size.er to them i mean. i don’t like anyone bringing up my size. i mean if they’re eating better for health reasons i’m ok w/ them bringing it up. but i won’t. also i’ve read that for people w/ EDs that’s like one of the worst things to do.is to bring up their size. my sister um while i’m going on about it.actually blatantly told us her weight at lunch. like.are you really that comfortable telling us that? not like i would you know.say what it is but. i just wish she’d hold back. that’s my sister for ya she’s um.she’s pretty blatant.and i’m not. right cause i don’t like it when people are. there was a time when recently in fact when i weighed myself. but then i stopped cause it got too damn cold in the bathroom to do that. but whenever i was below a certain weight i didn’t like it. which is another sign of recovery i think. also. if i can see a woman’s fukin sternum. then she should cover up. if she’s thin. evidently according to evan that’s healthy that i’m like this. um and how...........oh right moana.and bed bath beyond. and ticket ladies.
The lady at bed bath beyond was a talker which at the time i didn’t like and i still don’t. i answered her questions like ‘yeah ok please don’t continue this conversation’.
uh so then i went to Starbucks where I got a muffin and hot choc w/ peppermint in it. the lady asked if i wanted the muffin warmed up and even though i told her no she still did it. god did you not hear me? no apparently not. if i said no then listen. a lot of people would be like ‘awww that’s so nice’. well yeah if i’d wanted it warmed up then it would’ve been. but i didn’t. so. it’s not nice that she didn’t listen to me. i was wondering what was taking so damn long. so bc of time i was rushing to my mom’s and i don’t like rushing. um so got back had dinner. got ready and the bus came and took me to the school and the i went to the house. and um that was yesterday.

Last updated September 19, 2017