Anxious. in Since OD is shutting down....

I think I’ve been alone in my head too much since yesterday and my anxiety is coming back. I really need to start finding people to socialize with on my days off because I hate feeling like this when I have nothing to do. It’s snowed a shit ton once again and I don’t think I’m going to be able to get out of my parking lot so I don’t plan to even try until tomorrow when I have to go to work. I am so sick of looking at this ugly white shit I could puke. I’m so sick of being cold the second I step outside and having to worry about having a car accident because the roads are bad and people drive like complete idiots here the second a snowflake touches the fucking ground.

I’m doing laundry and plan to shower later. I wrote out my rent check so all I have to do is mail it. I’ll probably do one for my electric bill because I still don’t know if I’ll get help paying it yet or not. Ugh all I do is stress about bills and it is starting to get irritating. Last week I got more hours than normal because business had picked up and I hope it stays that way because then it’s more money in my bank account. I’ve been buying baby stuff here and there off Facebook when I see something in good shape for a a good price. I haven’t bought as much as I’d like to but I’ll get there.

It’s crazy to think about how fast the time has already gone. I’m officially 11 weeks and 1 day and I know I’m not extremely pregnant yet but I found out I was pregnant at 5 weeks and 2 days and it’s already been 6 weeks since then!! Everyone tells me that it goes fast and I can see that already. I’ll be in my 2nd trimester in 5 days and I have some appointments coming up. My baby appointment is next Friday the 13th and I’ve let Eric’s Mom know when and where. I do hope she comes because I really want to meet her and see if we are going to get along.