Over due update in Torridaussity Two

So I usually don’t make resolutions because I don’t keep them so I made some goals for this year. Number one being happier, number 2 trying to fix my finances as I let it all slide with everything going on at the end of the year, three read the Bible by the end of the year.
Those don’t seem so hard right, but so far I have failed at the first two. I am faithfully reading my daily bible assignments and actually enjoying it.
As for number 1 I am trying to be happier, but because of number 2 it’s hard. I know money isn’t everything, but when you are slowly sinking farther into debt, it is hard to be happy. I am not an extravagant spender. I am going into debt paying my monthly bills…rent, utilities, food, medications etc. I am researching the best at home business to start to help me make some extra income right now Tupperware is my first choice because there aren’t a lot of people in the area that sell it, I like the products and can then definitely say not only do I sell them, I use them too. I am also hoping to sell more of my cards and crafts, maybe even some paintings.
I am still single and although I am mostly happy, I do long for finding that special someone.
My grandfather is still hanging in there and I am happy we made it through the holidays and his 95th birthday with him still here. I try to visit weekly. He has told us all he is ready to go to heaven. We have no indication as to when that could be and so I cherish the time I have with him. My mom’s health is slowly getting worse. She has had 3 back surgeries in the past and her pain has come back again. She has also said there are days she wants to die. It is hard for me being the child who lives close to home to hear her say that and deal with my grandfather’s situation as well. My brother got a taste of the stress and depression I have to deal with on a daily basis while he was home for the holidays, but I still don’t think he gets it.
My job is going ok, but as I suspected to pay raise again this year and so with them cutting out overtime last year and no pay raise this year it is hard to want to do my job when I feel so under valued.
Anyway that’s basically all going on with me. Not totally unhappy, but not jumping for joy either. I take one day at a time and pray that I make it to see the next. Thanks for those of you who still read this. To close right now my Steelers are winning, I am hoping it stays that way lol.