Remember one year ago when I was panicked and lost because I was unemployed and it was so incredibly hot in Temecula and I felt like a failure?
Good news! I’m back in the exact same situation!
And to rectify this, I’m halfheartedly applying for random jobs and filling the void by looking up flights I’ll never book and apartments in neighborhoods I want to live.
I’m not any closer to finding out what I want – and the things within reach I’m only feeling lukewarm about, which I’m sure puts out bad vibes into the universe for me.
The nonprofit job in Santa Monica: The reality of living in LA is pretty shitty, but I’d be near my two close friends and the job sounds like it’s most closely what I want, even though it has the potential to pay shit.
Marketing gig in San Diego: The reality of this job is very shitty, but probably pays very well and it’s in San Diego. Could quit after a year and probably travel.
Winery gig in Temecula: Free wine and more time to procrastinate on making long-term decisions.
I feel like life is moving past me and I’m stuck in Groundhog Day, reliving the same, endless day.
cannibalgirl ⋅ July 28, 2017
i am in the same predicament. being unemployed/having a shitty job is just an awful feeling but there are endless possibilities. and you've got so many skills and so much time! good luck, i love you <3