Good morning. in Since OD is shutting down....

I’m having another feel good day and I’m loving it. I told my friend how good I feel and she says I must have gotten over the hump. I’m sure that all the things I was doing had to detox from my body and that was part of the reason I felt like shit. I haven’t had a cigarette in 18 days. I know I’m 9 weeks pregnant and it’s bad to smoke but I didn’t know until a month ago and it took some time for me to stop. I tapered off a lot once I found out and then once I saw the ultrasound, I didn’t pick up another cigarette. I know I’ll probably start back up once my kid is born but I’ll smoke outside like I always did and change before I hold my kid. I have 7 more months and maybe by the time my kid comes, I may be completely done with cravings and not start up again either.

I was able to pick up a 4 hour shift tonight. It’s bad enough that the new manager cut 15 hours off my weeks, and now the fucker can’t even schedule me 5 days a week either. I mean, this shit is getting really old and I may not even return after I have my kid. Most of the people at my work have a second full time day job so it doesn’t bother them as much but for us that only have the 1 job, it’s getting super stressful. I understand we aren’t as busy but that’s their fault!! Why should we all have to suffer because they choose to be greedy pricks?! I know I’m not going to be there forever so I’m not even going to worry about it.

Last night I was thinking about how much help you get once you’re pregnant. It’s honestly fucking insane. From the second I went to the dr and confirmed I was pregnant, they told me to apply for state health insurance and food stamps. From there, they tell me I’ll get even more food stamps once my kid is here. You can get free car seats from the hospital once your kid is born and there’s places that will give you a bunch of shit you need like clothes, toys, diapers. I already have so many people telling me that they have plenty of stuff to give me once I know if I’m having a girl or a boy. It’s absolutely shocking how much help you get once you decide to have kids, no wonder why people have several!! I plan on having just one though.

Anyways, I’m not sure what I’ll do all day yet. I wouldn’t mind maybe finding a second hand store to look at stuff or something. I may nap because I didn’t get to bed until 2 this morning and was up at 8. I’m also really excited that I’m going to have cable in a week. I literally can’t wait. I know next Friday once it gets hooked up, I’m gonna be racing home from work and will probably already have a couple of things recorded on DVR. It’s going to be epic. I just need to make an extra $50 so I can get somewhat ahead on the bill.

I called to see if I’ll get help on my electric bill but I guess my application is still pending. They got in one the 12th and it can take up to 60 days to get it approved so that sucks but I will have to pay at least something until I hear back.

More later.