Shower. in Since OD is shutting down....

I just showered. I love taking showers, it’s literally the best part of my day. I kinda want to go get some baby stuff today like diapers, wipes, and shampoo but I don’t know. It’s cold and I have to wait until my hair’s dry. I’ve been doing really good at saving money and just trying to make a list of everything I’m going to need. I have a lot of friends saying they are going to give me stuff but people always say they are going to do shit but then never do so I’d rather just get everything and then if they help, awesome and if not then I am not without.

It feels so good to not be tired as fuck. It’s just so crazy that pregnancy just wipes you out. I’m 9 weeks and it finally dawned on me yesterday that I’m in my 3rd month already. Once I reach 12 weeks, I’ll be in my second trimester and I’m really looking forward to that because everyone says I will have a lot more energy and be more excited. I guess the 3rd trimester I’ll be super tired again and the last month will be the worst. Everyone says it goes super fast and I already feel like it has. I found out a month ago I was pregnant and I’m already 2 months and 1 week!!! It’s crazy how fast it’s going!!

I’m feeling pretty good about things. Yesterday my hormones got to me and I cried several times at work but no one saw. I made sure I was in the bathroom but I’ve just reminded myself that life goes on and I have enough to worry about. I refuse to sit around and be upset over ignorant ass people that shouldn’t be permitted to rent space in my head. The decision has been made and even if they change their mind, I won’t see their kid anymore. After I’m told I’m a danger, it’s going to be a long time before I just get over it.

I think I’m going to watch some tv and start getting ready for the day. I go into work 30 minutes later than normal today and gotta try and swipe a shift for tomorrow. I’m really sick of never being scheduled enough hours and hoping someone gives up a shift. I just think it’s ridiculous for so many reasons but it also allows me to realize that I don’t want to be there forever either.

More later.