New OB, constipation. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I’ve had some issues with constipation and yesterday I had a really bad stomachache right away in the morning so I call and talk to my nurse. The second I mention the word constipated, she starts talking about drinking water, stool softeners and a bunch of other things I’ve already done. She talked to me in such a rude manner that I was crying by the time I finally hung up on her. I called back and let her know that the way she talked to me was absolutely disgusting and I was truly disappointed in her behavior.

I had to get them to write me a referral so I could go to a walk in clinic where they just told me to get Miralax and Milk of Mag, which is fine and shit I already knew to do but I wanted to make sure I got stuff that was safe. I then had to go to the OB office to get a referral to get in with a different OB where I apparently had terrible ‘language’ because when asked what gender ob I’d prefer, I said female that was friendly!!! So I spend the whole day on the phone trying to find a new dr with no such luck because everyone was either associated with my first ob, not taking new patients, or booked too far out.

They called today to let me know that they were releasing me from the clinic but I can still go there for the next 30 days. I said I wouldn’t be anywhere I’m not wanted or would I feel comfortable being there knowing how shitty they’ve already fucking treated me!!! It’s bullshit they talked to me like I was complete trash and then I tell them I didn’t appreciate it so I get kicked out?!?!?! Okay!!!

I was able to find a new OB and will see them on the 13th of January. Hopefully they’ll be able to treat me better than the first one did. I just don’t understand why the fuck people are so fucking rude here. I’ll never have another child in this city.

So I found out on Tuesday that I had Gonorrhea. I had been tested twice before this and was clean and the only person I was with was Eric. I am absolutely livid. They called me as I was at work and I just couldn’t let it go. I unblock Eric and let him know he has something and needs to go get tested. All he could respond with was, “what did you give me” which made me want to fly down to where he is and beat him within an inch of his fucking life. He acted like he was mentally retarded and kept writing back saying he doesn’t know what the fuck I was talking about and I was going to keep his kid from him.

I told him exactly how I felt and then I blocked him. I let them know his name so they can get in touch with him and get him tested so he’s not exposing anyone else to it. I do blame myself as well because I chose to have unprotected sex but he lied. He said that he wasn’t with anyone else and obviously was. I’m just grateful it was something curable and wasn’t going to harm my child this early in my pregnancy. I took the antibiotics and got it cleared up but I will NEVER have unprotected sex again. Eric has done nothing but lie to me and this time, it could have had serious consequences for me or my child. It’s just so crazy how selfish people can really be and I’ll be damned if I ever find myself in this spot again.

I’m off today but the manager that went ape shit on me numerous times last Saturday left a voicemail needing me to come to work today. If it was any manager other than him, I would have already left for work. Because it’s him and he’s treated me like shit too many times, it’s just not worth it. I need the hours like crazy but I don’t need to go in and risk getting my head bit off while I do all the work and he sits by a computer and does nothing all fucking day long. I honestly wish the guy would quit already. We’ve already started taking bets on how much longer until his departure.

I finally told my brother via messenger about my pregnancy and he had nothing positive to say whatsoever. He said I don’t have the patience and I’ll lose everything. He’s one to talk because he has zero patience and when his 4th kid was born, neither him or his girlfriend worked and I had to buy them diaper rash cream because they couldn’t afford it!!! My best friend just had another baby a year ago and hasn’t lost anything but sleep. My brother doesn’t get that I know how to fucking work!!!

Anyways, I’m going to watch tv for awhile. It’s cold as balls again today and I don’t even know if I’m going to leave my house. I’m really sick of never having anyone to hang out with.