Behavior in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Call it superstitious but… as I have been praying like Luther in Wartburg Castle the last few days… my superstitious and bargaining nature have been off the chart. The full list of things I’d give up, change, become… all of it. And here’s the thing. I am so obscenely serious about all of it! Not even kidding. For example… let’s suggest a hypothetical. Let’s say I was swearing off any and all masturbatory vices and temptations. No porn, no self-release, no sexy pictures or movies of any kind. Now… there’s the “God, please allow X and I’ll do Y.” But… I am so dedicated… I’m doing it now. On all of it. I realize it is superstitious, potentially manipulative, and a bunch of things wrong as far as ethics and honor… but… have I mentioned how much I want and need this job interview to go well? So… yeah. The list of “God, please… help and I’ll.....”.... I’m dedicated. I’ll admit… it may have been a bit difficult to go through the weekend without vice but… there is no expression powerful enough to convey how much I want this job. I even swore off complaining; which is… going to be interesting and difficult.