meeting. w/ debbie. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

so like i said yesterday I had a meeting w/ debbie. she’s really nice but that’s the problem. is people like her want me to open up to her. and.i’m a really private person so. and i know if i opened up to her it would work against me so.
A thing she asked about was........how my hair washing had been going. oh yeah cause the day of the big meeting it was decided. although i didn’t actually state this.that i’d shower at 10 p.m. and not 7:10. and so the lady said she has no way to monior that. well i don’t like that word bc it sounds harsh and authoritative. and ‘observe’ which i like better.well that’s a bit.idinno .........like that’s akin to creepy. yes that’s the point. that’s a reason i do it. is so that she won’t be able to do that part of her job. don’t these people get that i don’t want their help? no apparently not cause they keep fukin rying. i’m only here bc it’s somewhere to live and for the benefits. i turn the water on to hot. which means it gets humid in the bathroom. i don’t know how long bathrooms stay humid for nor am i asking. bu i mean. that’s a way of letting the lady know I’ve showered. also the other reason i do it at 10 is cause then everything’s done for the day.
so debbie.also brought up my hair. they were saying when I first moved in i was washing my hair in the kitchen sink. but that was an agreement I had between stephanie and i so. and the lady said something about how if it’s ok w/ me we could go back to that. and I bristled and said I wouldn’t want that. and i don’t. and debbie was saying that’s something we’d re-visit. well i’m just going to say the same thing so there’s really no point to bringing it up again. I wear a hat pretty much all the time. yes bc i don’t want people seeing my hair. I’m really sens. about it. it’s ok for me to bring it up but not for others to. back when I had a place of my own there were times when I was there and I didn’t wear a hat. yes bc i was the only one there during that time. The lady said something about hair needing oxygen. ok stop doing that. stop getting involved. things were so much better when she wasn’t. and i think i know my body a little better then they do. so i think i’m good.