Sunday Morning in New Diary

I calmed down after seeing that cockroach. I can’t worry about it. I will have to tell the Housing Authority Monday morning. I cannot worry about imagined consequences. I have a problem and it needs to be addressed I will take care of the situation. I will deal with whatever consequences when and if they arise. Right now it is important for me to remain calm and rational. Worrying about the cockroach situation will only make me sick.

I I started reading this morning. I finished this one book Radicalism of the American Revolution by Gordon S Wood. I started another book by the same author The Purpose of the Past: Reflections on the Use of History I was reading the introduction and it seems a bit complication way over my head. But I will stick with this book and get what I can out of it.

Well two more days left till the end of the month. This means I got to go out on the first. I will have to deal with the dreaded van lady. I m not worried ab out that either. I’m, not thinking about leaving my apartment and having to deal with people in Wal Mart. I don’t want to go but I have to go out take care of business and do a little shopping. There is no sense in worrying about it All I have to do is get on the van go to t6he bank and Wal Mart. I will do my shopping and take care of business then get back home. It is as simple as that.

There is no sense in worrying about anything. Always remember worrying does not solve any problem. Worrying leads to anxiety and panic attacks. Worrying only adds more problems. Best way to handle things Is not to think about it but take care of the problems when they arise. That is how I’m going to handle the cockroach situation and getting out of my apartment. Just do it.

I’ve also been thinking about my so called worker. I am really kind of disappointed in her. I can put up with the fact that she does not speak to me. I can put up with the fact that she does not do much when she comes. I don’t even mind the fact that she sits and watches tv on my time. I’ve always said she does her job. I mean she fixes breakfast and cleans up the kitchen. Then she runs the sweeper. I was always satisfied with her work.

But lately her work has not been up to par. She does not clean the kitchen right. There was pancake mix all over the place. Then she put dirty dishes in the cupboard. That sort of pissed me off and I started thinking about it and thinking about it. I hate to make waves but I think it is past time to ask for a new worker. She does not have to like me or even carry on a conversation. But she should at least clean up the damned kitchen right.

I’ve been thinking about the pancake mix being all over the kitchen. The more I think about it the angrier I get. I said to myself that is why I am getting cockroaches. I thought about the connection between the dried pancake mix and the cockroaches. I got really pissed. I made a decision. I am going to call the agency Monday and complain about it. I’m doing to tell her everything what has been going on and I am not satisfied. I will demand a new worker as soon as possible. I have had enough

This has been on my mind for some time. I hate to complain. I hate to say anything bad about somebody else. I hate to upset the apple cart. But in this case I think I am within my rights to complain. I am not satisfied with my present worker evenb though she has done a lot of nice things for me. She Is not doing her job right and because of it I’m g etting cockroaches. This makes it within my right to complain about her work or lack thereof.