so apparently. financial thing. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

so I didn’t completely get this untill my mom read the email to me. [the email she got from Linda]. [as i don’t open my emails so. her sending me a copy wouldn’t’ve done anything]. well so Linda’s my financial lady. and every month I turn in receipts so I can get my money. and i try to match what they give me. I’ve gone 2 months and matched the amount perfectly. and every month for me is a new start to do that. and that’s my goal for that month.

well..........I’m supposed to be getting $20 more than i’m currently getting. [and please don’t ask how much i’m currently getting. i won’t say so]. and up untill earlier when my mom read the email to me I just thought they were again holding the money hostage for a certain amount of time. which well they were. i knew i didn’t have more but i just thought at some point Linda would get tired of as i call it holding it hostage. and so when that time came she’d be like ‘ok so here’s the rest of it. and this is a new start’. but I thought every month was a new start for them as well. i thought it’d be like ‘oh so she matched what we gave her so she’ll get that exact amount’.
well apparently and maybe Linda does this every month I don’t know this is the first i’m hearing of it. um but apparently next month Linda [or whoever] is already deciding how much I’m getting w/o me even turning in the receipts. so evidently before my mom explained that part to me I missed it and didn’t completely understand. [well obviously i missed it and didn’t understand].
I remember back when I called Linda and we talked about it which now seems like it was months ago she told me she’d love to help me out but she needs the receipts. right ok that makes sense. but i thought she meant for that month. I didn’t know that it was like a forever thing. [which it doesn’t have to be]. right cause no one had told me that. i’m only just now figuring this out. she really should’ve been more clear about that. not that i asked so that was on me. but they have office phones. so when i call i don’t leave VMs and i don’t know that my # shows up on their office phones. vs. like w/ a cell phone your friend calls you and you can put their name or w/e they go by in your contact list. or w/e you want them to go by. like ‘purple dinosaur’ or ‘snow queen’. [i’m just makin this up]. and so every time they call you know who it is. and so the only other way for them to know it’s me is if ileave a VM which as i’ve said i don’t do. or to have them reply to my emails. and then to have me reply to the ones i’ve sent which i also don’t do. i really don’t think i’m that hard a person to get ahold of if people know the right way to get ahold of me. which most don’t since i’m not that comfortable w/ most people. the right way to get ahold of me is call no VMs.

anyway getting back to my point. see w/ things like this I need details. I needed to know that it wasn’t just for that month. otherwise.......well this happens. again i need more clarification and explanation then most people. sorry but yes sometimes i do need things spelled out for me.

so yeah. The other reason I don’t turn in all my receipts is cause idon’t want the lady to know i’m drinking in her house. cause i’m not to do that. [well guess what you tell me not to do something and i’ll just want to do it more.so that doesn’t work. this is why telling me not to swallow toothpaste is a bad idea. or telling me not to do hard drugs. and btw i’ve never done hard drugs this is just an example. and i’ll do it too. w/ the toothpaste thing i mean. it sounds weird and somewhat unethical to say ‘well give me permission to do it’ but then i’m a lot less likely to do it]. but maybe.she doesn’t have to know. maybe.........’oh well i bought these but didn’t drink them’. yes i drank them. in her house too. but then she might wonder where the full shooters are. [or i could you know either a actually be honest about it and turn in all of the receipts or 2 not drink neither of which is going to happen so]. now if I could just turn in the receipts to Linda and the lady wouldn’t ever see them then I’d be ok w/ that. but i don’t know that Linda would do that. i mean i would cause i’m not that good a person. i’d help someone pass a drug test for instance. [i have in fact it was yrs. ago]. i don’t know Linda that well so i’m going to assume that.she wouldn’t talk to the lady about my receipts. er i mean that she would. they’re my receipts they’re not the lady’s receipts. [this is also my way of not involving the lady in this.well yeah. that’s.i mean that’s the whole point of why i want to do it that way].

so we’ll see how things go. and what happens. [or i guess doesn’t happen].