Pat liked 'rent'. and i wonder...... in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

so this is copied from my ‘“i have a cold i told you” ‘ entry. er i mean the title of this is from.that entry yes there we go.

well so. like i said Pat liked ‘rent’. and i wonder.........if he ever went through withdrawl. i don’t know if all the times i was around him he was sober. just cause he wasn’t drinking at the bar doesn’t mean he wasn’t drinking. i used to.drink and then i’d go out and drink more. and every time we were at his place we drank.in his basement. and no not like we were only doing that. no we also um. Well we would watch movies.and talk. We watched ‘pitch perfect’ ‘funny girl’ once he played his guitar presumably for me. he’d cook and we’d go downstairs and drink and watch movies maybe also eat. he was a good cook god i miss his cooking. now I know what people mean when they say that. i never really got that before.

when he um left. he might’ve even been drinking that day i don’t know. I didn’t see him,that day only a wk. to a couple wks. before. they say that’s what he ‘left’ from and i believe them.as well as the anuerism [sp?].

and it’s not like i can ask him if he ever went through withdrawl cause he’s not here. and can’t ask evan atm cause we’re not talking. been almost 4 months. i’ll find someone to ask probably his brother. Pat’s i mean not evan’s.