Busy. in Since OD is shutting down....

OK so I have been massively busy lately. It all started last Saturday when I worked 12 hours and because my manager got mad at me, he threw my food away so I was sick as shit until I got off and got some food. I was just completely over my job and being treated like shit so I was talking to my friends that moved 5 hours away and then wanted me to come visit. We’ve been talking about it for months and then I finally decided to go. I left here about 7am Sunday morning and came back Monday afternoon. It was just so nice to see them and their kids. I also enjoyed seeing new things and driving on different roads. My friend really wants me to move there but I’m not ready to take that step for a million and one reasons.

I’ve reduced my hours at work and only scheduled 4 days a week now. I’m just getting burnt out, feel like I don’t have enough off time, and with reducing my hours, my rent should go down some. I just don’t see the point in working 40+ a week just so I can pay more rent. My bank lady had called yet again and made me feel super lazy because I won’t continue working so much even though she told me I don’t make enough to purchase a house. I sent her a nasty fucking email letting her know she no longer has authorization to be snooping in my personal stuff and that I will get a house with or without her help.

I worked 11 hours on Saturday and then went out with Eric. We went to a bar downtown and I ran into one of my friends and his friend. It was a super fun night and then we came back to my place and had sex. We hooked up last night and had sex too. He really wants us to be together but there’s just too many kinks that we would have to figure out first. It still bothers me that he doesn’t have a car and it becomes a hassle. He also lives with a roommate where things aren’t working out and I have already let him know that I am not ready for someone to live with me again and probably won’t for quite a while.

I’ve slept a lot today and yesterday. It’s felt really good. I was extra tired before this week started after going to see my friends and was already wiped out before my work week started so I’m glad I was able to sleep as much as I did today and yesterday. I am also getting laundry done and house clean so I won’t have to do it tomorrow before work.

I kinda want to hang out with him tonight but I just don’t want to have to go pick him up and then take him home. He lives on the other side of town and I just want to enjoy sitting here not being responsible for anyone. Again, I just don’t get how people survive in this world without cars and being any kind of self sufficient. Ugh, I just don’t get it. I have always done everything I can to avoid really having to rely on other people so it would drive me fucking crazy to not have a car.

Still unsure if and when I’ll ever see the little one again. I will be off for Halloween and it would be great to see her or be able to go with to trick or treat but it probably won’t happen so I’ll probably just hang out at home by myself and watch scary movies.

Anyways, I’m going to put laundry in the dryer and watch tv.