um. oh you're one of those people. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

this is actually 2 topics.

slight TMI.

so I’m stiill on my period. it doesn’t usually last this long. usually it’s only a day or 2. it’s been.ok. cranberry juice is keeping the nauseau at bay. i don’t like.cranberry juice but it gets the job done. I’m mainly just tired. well and irritable. someone could say ‘the sky is blue’ and it’d irritate the hell out of me. I got it Mon. my period that is.well and also the cranberry juice. yeah i’m not a big juice person.

I’d considered getting milk which, as much as i don’t like milk it helps w/ nauseau. but w/ cow’s milk I only like chocolate milk but I don’t like the mention of anything chocolate when i’m sick. um anyway.

so I went to the store earlier. now i’m not someone who snaps at people a lot particularly people i don’t know. but one of the clerks was asking me if I was ok or w/e it is they ask and i’m ‘yeah’ and then he asked again and I actually snapped at him ‘yeah’. like godamn did you not hear me? no apparently not. see this is a reason I ignore clerks. well a reason. so that i don’t end up doing something like that. which doesn’t happen a whole lot but in the unlikely event it does.......yeah. and then right after i’m ‘sorry’. I don’t like when people in stores ask me that but i don’t usually snap at them. yeah i even surprised myself. this is the reason i like going to the store at 2 in the morning.cause no one asks you that. [er not that i do that now..........] and then after that i went elsewhere in the store. like ok i’m gonna walk away now.

alrite so then i went on w/ my day. and my grocery shopping.

ok so when i got back i posted it on my other fb. cause i post about things that happen. so this chick brittany. i’ve mentioned her before i know her from my bar days. she’s a perfectly nice person which apparently is the problem or it had been earlier today. so she commented on my update and she’s all ‘awww be nice to people working in retail’. i didn’t say much in response to that cause well i was already annoyed and that only served to annoy me further. i don’t like it when people do that. That’s the reason i don’t. if someone’s annoyed i won’t say something like that to them bc it won’t help. i might not like that they’re annoyed but i’ll let them be that way and if it’s on fb then.I don’t have to actually be around that person. it’s kindof like when someone’s already put out and they tell you they need to go on a walk and you spend 5 mins. of your time trying to convince you they don’t. that’s probably one of the worst things you can do in that situation. no really just let them leave. if you want to know where they’re going that’s ok. but ask and then let them leave.

valerie’s like that too in that she’s nice in that way. my sister’s like that too but she’s not super nice. which i like actually. also when i say ‘the store’ i mean the grocery store which apparently some people don’t get. also w/ the way she responded i feel like that’s insinuating that I don’t when I clearly stated in my update that i’m not someone who snaps at people a lot. i don’t know if ignoring clerks is being nice exactly but it’s maybe better than snapping at people. well i’m being nice to them in that i’m not snapping at them. [ok so now i’m trying to justify the fact that ignoring them is impolite. well it’s like they say if you don’t have anything nice to say then don’t. although i don’t always follow that rule]. i know people are trying to help but that doesn’t so....... if you’re not going to be helpful then at least be quiet.

so now Brittany & I aren’t talking. well we didn’t really before but i wasn’t this annoyed w/ her. it’s not like a huge loss or anything except i kindof er ‘exploded’ on fb. my latest update is something ‘when i go to the store i like people to not talk to me’ and then ‘if i require assistance i can ask it for myself’ and then was ‘ [ok i’ll stop. i’m not in a good place which well i wasn’t before......] ‘. and then nothing further. a part of me wants to start something w/ her but i mean.it’s fb. it’s like someone arguing w/ someone else at a get together.or in a store. that’s not really.a good place to do something like that to argue w/ them. either PM them or take it outside/elsewhere. The more I try not to start something w/ her or anyone really the more I want to. it’s like when someone tells you not to think about the red car. see you’re thinking about it right now aren’t you. if i hadn’t mentioned it you wouldn’t be.

they say you can catch more flies w/ honey then w/ vinegar but who says i want to catch flies at all maybe i don’t. not if people are going to keep annoying me. this is the reason [well ok again a reason] i don’t like people. if i’m not around people they can’t bother me. [yes and then i don’t become annoyed. which well the only thing that does is annoy others].
My psych. & I were talking about this recently. if i stop talking to people then i’llbe alone. yeah but that’s not so bad. no, one’s not better, than the other. it’s just. w/ the me being alone one.........there aren’t people. there are objects. to destoy yourself w/. and I know cause I drank heavily for 2 yrs. When I used to get hammered really quickly well.i don’t think anyone would want to be around me when I was drunk. I wasn’t a nice drunk. i’m not proud of it but here we are. which is a reason to drink alone. [ok so that sounds like i’m promoting alcoholism which i’m not exactly. no i’m just saying if people are going to be like that drunk or sober then don’t be around people. which is what this whole entry’s about].

i also feel like Brittany insulted my intelligence by telling me that. which is another reason i don’t tell people things like that. oh she’s one of those people the kind who’s super nice. [i keep coming back to this this and the ‘insulting my intelligence’ thing].