I love you, deep and strong in Random Thoughts

Monday was tough. I felt fragile and thought i might not make it though work. I did, though. I spent both Saturday and Sunday night with my love, and it helped. I’ve told him what i have been experiencing, so i don’t feel isolated and so i have someone to push me when i need it. For example, i’ve known for about a month or so that i need to go back to therapy, but i was putting it off. The idea of calling people and trying to figure out who is right for me feels so overwhelming. I sought out help, asking for recommendations.

A friend who is a trauma therapist with veterans recommended someone to me, and he got back to me. I have a Friday appointment. He knows TRE and how it affects people with trauma, so i am curious how this will go. I don’t prefer a male therapist, but he is older so i don’t think there will be as much of an issue.

I stopped the TRE and lessened the amount of time i’ve been meditating. Monday when i was meditating, i started getting the same movements, so i stopped.

Last night i actually went to a kundalini yoga/meditation class (not the physical postures of yoga, just meditation). I was afraid that might bring something on, but it was great. I think i will go back. Here is the gentleman who was leading the meditation:

http://stuartperrin.com/

It sounds like he is a well known spiritual guide. I am on a spiritual path, but don’t know which one it is. Perhaps this will be a part of it.

I realized that today is 9 months since my love Jamie and i met in person. This is what he texted me this morning:

“I love you, deep and strong”

No one has ever felt so right.