psych. issues. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

so i’m having issues w/ my psych. of course. The last time um she i were talking about hygiene. i told her the reason I don’t do certain things er regarding.hygiene .bc it reminds me of being at stephanie’s. and my psych is like ‘well that sounds like an excuse’ not to do something. right and this is the reason my sister & I don’t talk about my issues.is cause she’s just that honest and i don’t like that. this is how my mom is too. i’m not usually like that w/ most people.

well. this bothers me bc. it happened quicker than I wanted it to. um. I’d planned to talk to her my psych. about all dental related things..........when the time came not before. i didn’t want to feel better about it. [well i don’t think most people want to see a psychologist]. i could’ve stopped her. but i’m too afraid of confrontation. i’m too afraid to say no. I’ve always shown up never cancelled never abruptly left a session early. no cause i don’t do that. i’m not that person anymore although sometimes i really want to be. like [and not that i like donuts as i don’t but for the sake of an example......metaphor thing]. I don’t want someone to convince me to have another kindof donut. no just let me have the chocolate donut and don’t say anything about it. don’t try to change me.

I’d stop going but.then people would ask questions and again more trouble than it’s worth. also she’s not employed by me.[er well actually she’s her own boss but.i mean regarding finances. er ok so that didn’t make sense. what i mean is i’m not the one paying her so].

see unlike w/ valerie most of the time. i am getting something out of seeing my psych. but what i’m getting i don’t like.