um. but ya know that's fine. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

this is actually 2 topics. the containers thing and the flu shot thing.

so. today when I finished washing my dishes i put them back in the drawer. [the lady doesn’t have a um dishrack. so my dishes other than silverware come out the drawer and go back in]. as usual. only to discover that the microwave containers [which are hers] were empty [they’d had food in them] and had been put back in the drawer.

Most of the time I’m the one who empties them [btw she gave them to me to use] and puts them back in the drawer. and i’ve done that every Mon. night for awhile. well except for last night. and i was going to do it tonight but well then this happened. yes they’re hers but i’m responsible for them. Most of the time i don’t like people doing things for me. like i’m not 2 i can do it myself. if other people get sick from food I’ve left in the fridge well.that’s not really my issue. That’s why there are 2 people. she’s the main person but her husband also fills in. like if she’s busy and is unavailable to take me somewhere/pick me up from somewhere. or if she gets sick then her husband can fill in. [ok so that makes it sound like i’m expecting him to and yeah maybe i am]. so i’m really not too worried about it. in the event something happens thing’sll work out. bc they always have for me. but w/ certain things that’s the issue is.the don’t work out the way i want them to. The only way it impacts me is if i get sick from it. yeah i’m a little selfish but isn’t everyone. and i’m a milleniel what can ya do? [well i know the answer but i won’t.do it so].

we should’ve.i don’t know had discussion about it. if it was her who moved it she should’ve let me know ahead of time. and i mean verbally not through her notes i don’t read. been like ‘hey just so ya know if you don’t empty these by Tues. night then i will’. oh ok. instead of just.doing it for me.

of course.i don’t like when things like this happen but it would bother me more to change things. so i’m pretty much damned either way no i know.

btw i still haven’t had my dr.’s appt. it occured to me that on the day I found out about the flu shot.thing that I could’ve talked to my mom about it.yes but i don’t trust her not to get involved so. That’s the main reason I didn’t bring it up. also my uncle was there. [er at my mom’s i mean not at lunch w/ my sister i]. and i try to be nice and polite around him and not show i’m bothered by things. it’s also occured to me that I could’ve asked my mom when my dr.’s appt. was. see regarding appts. my mom except for like once has always verbally told me when they are/were. right and that works. i mean notes you can ignore. and again well if it’s that damn important......... and appts. are important that’s not what i’m saying.well not entirely. no it’s how things happen. The only notes of hers I read are.regarding the time she says she’ll take me to the store. right bc i’m the one who told her I want to go. ya know it’s not her saying ‘you have a dr.’s appt.’. which is funny bc she doesn’t actually say that. it’s all in notes. It’s also occured to me.earlier today actually.that I could’ve typed up a note asking when my dr.s appt. is. well knowing me i probably wouldn’t’ve read the reply so. and also since i’m so bothered by the whole flu shot thing. i don’t feel like doing that. again the way someone can tell i’m bothered by something i do is when I don’t do nice things for them.

i know.i don’t have the whole story of the flu shot thing. and i don’t want it.bc i don’t want to feel better.

so. I probably don’t have my appt. tom. bc the office is closed tom. either that or Megan’s not in. it’s one of those. and Thurs. i’m going to my mom’s so that’s out. unless.....it’s been scheduled for me and then I’m going to my mom’s. see i don’t know cause nothing’s been said about it. and i’m not going to ask bc i am really tired of verbalising things. awhile back I gave the lady a note that said when I’m available. [well i’m pretty much always available i just prefer certain times/days for appts.]. and if Megan wasn’t available on those days then again.the lady should’ve came and talked to me about it. look if I need to change the schedule that’s fine. but the noting thing doesn’t work. but i don’t want that to stop cause i’m really comfortable w/ where i am. w/ not changing.

oh. So this is why me having a dr.’s appt. this wk. is such a big thing. bc i have a meeting Mon. and they want me to have the appt. by Mon. to make sure i’m ok. well and going into my privacy issues now. The only health related thing they or some of them know about is my anemia. i remember back when Milton was a part of things. I told him/someone that if the note from the dr. says something bad.well we agreed they wouldn’t tell me. like i don’t know if i had cancer. [which i don’t i’m jus sayin]. so anemia’s not great but i don’t think it’s that bad. like i hate that that’s a reason i’m cold all the time but that’s the worst of it. [but that said i still hate being cold] [my anemia isn’t due to lack of iron btw. and i know cause i’ve checked]. so the note. i...........i don’t know how to make that make sense.......... but yeah. if something was going on w/ me health wise I wouldn’t tell them. and when I went in to get my blood type i knew i was going to. bc i requested it. yes exactly. i’m the one who requested it. i mean i wouldn’t tell her or anyone really when/where they were getting a flu shot. so long as they get one. [and yes again i know the reasons some people don’t get one].

and maybe on the note the lady did ask me what i thought about getting my flu shot during my dr.’s appt. i don’t know.

or maybe..........and i don’t know cause again nothing’s actually been said about it. i’m having the dr.’s appt. mon. before the meeting. but see i’m in services and megan is no............that doesn’t make sense bc my insurance covers the appt. my dr. isn’t through services. so. if i did have the appt. mon. my mom might take me i don’t know. but probably not bc i fuked up by not reading the notes. i think it’s good to have a dr.’s appt. i’m not too worried about it/when i have it. the thing that bothers me is the whole flu shot thing. [right as i’ve mentioned on a few accounts]. i’m the one who wasn’t responsible and didn’t read the notes so. the only thing the lady did was leave them. i just want to think she’s more responsible in this than she is. well long as i can admit it at some point.

um so yeah.