so maybe? dr.s appt. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

so I think I had a dr.s appt.today. maybe. i might’ve. [well i either did or I didn’t. like there’s not a 3rd option here]. no i’m saying ‘maybe’ bc.well so at 1 the lady knocks on the door of my room and tells me the time. and I can’t make out what she’s said. and as i’ve mentioned before i’m always hesitant to ask people to repeat themselves cause i hate repeating myself. so i’m like ‘yeah ok’. I know she asked me something. although this might’ve been a dream........ she didn’t bring it up so i’m assuming i didn’t have one. i mean if it’s that important she can.talk to me about it. [which is funny i’m the exact opposite. if something bothers me that much then i won’t tell the person.and that’s how you know when something someone did is bothering me].

well at like between 7 and 8 this morning she left me notes under my door. 2 were replies to my notes the 3rd I think was telling me she’d gone out and I’m not sure what the other 2 were about.right cause I don’t usually read her notes. and also if i have an appt. that day but I don’t know that I do then i’m going to sleep. so leaving me notes the day of doesn’t work. [oh.wait i get it. i do the same thing. yes and the reason i leave people notes the day of is so they won’t be able to do anything during that time. and also since i’m not that busy then.i don’t fully relate to it].

and also. part of this is the flu shot thing. I’m trying to communicate w/o actually talking about it.that i didn’t like what happened. it was just decided for me where i’d get a flu shot.ok and once again. if it’s about me then it should be about.well you know.me.

i remember. back when we had a meeting w/ Nick. [ok Nick took over for amber who.i didn’t like] he asked something about if i wanted notes or if I wanted to sit and discuss things they way we were at the meeting? and i said I wanted to sit and discuss things. yes. and if I have an upcoming appt. coming up then the lady should like.tell me when we’re doing bag checks or during dinner. i don’t see what’s so hard about a remembering something I only told someone once [and no i’m not asking so] and 2 figuring out another way to do things but apparently there is. and don’t be the person who goes ‘well if you don’t tell them how are they supposed to know?’ as that won’t help. well either they’re not.or they’ll figure it out. i have high expectations it’s just how i am.won’t change it so.

but see.and I was thinking about this on the car ride back from being out w/ valerie. [btw our time out was ok]. my insurance covers my dr.’s appt. so that’s not a factor for me.and also Megan’s actually a nurse not a dr. i just refer to as my dr. [well.she’s a nurse practicioner]. which means.there’s not a co-pay. so see money’s not a factor here.

or maybe i didn’t have the appt. today. i’m not going to ask [i don’t verbalise things and i don’t want to ask through writing] i’ll just be left wondering.which i’m ok w/.

no it’s just.this is more news than anything.