Sunday Morning in New Diary

I’ve been up since 4am. I feel better today than I did yesterday. I got up had my coffee and did a lot of reading in my book Creation of the American Republic 1776-1787 by Gordon S Wood. I read about 25 pages Very interesting material and enjoyed it today. Going to read more this morning.

I’m going to take I t easy today. I want to try to relax and not think about things. I think about things start rumination about crap then get depressed. I want to have a nice relaxing day today because I have to go out again tomorrow

I will be very busy tomorrow.. I have to go to a lot of different places first the bank to get my check Then to t he department of motor vehicles in the state building to get a new state id card. Then a trip to Gumby’s for cigars. Then over to Steubenville to get my glasses adjusted. Then back to Weirton to go to Walmart for groceries for the month. I need to gear up for tomorrow.,

I have to get groceries tomorrow. This means another trip to Wal Mart. I do not do well at Wal Mart. I like shopping there but I get very anxious and nervous whenever I go in. I don’t know why that is. Maybe it is because of the people in there. I hate being around people at times. I hate having to wait for a ride u[ there Sometimes I hate going in the van with Connie. This is one reason why I go shopping once or twice a month. Don’t have to go through the every day hassle.

Tomorrow does not have to be like last Friday . I can just go out do my business and not worry about people. I am going to approach tomorrow with a different and positive attitude. . One good thing is I am not going on the van. My case manager is taking me. I do not have to wait for a ride .I do not have to endure the hostility of the van driver. I can get out do my business and be back home in no time.

Another good thing is that I do not have to spend as much money on food as originally thought. I planned on spending #150 for food this month. I think I can get buy with half of that .This is a good thing. It all depends on what I have to get for tomorrow. In any case I will have money left over from my food budget for other things such as dinner out this month.

I am doing pretty good this morning. I feel relaxed and content. Been focused on the positive thing in my life. I have a lot going for me. 1. I have a roof over my head. 2 I have insurance that pays for the cost of my meds. 3 I have food to eat. 4 I have clothe to wear. 5 I have a wonderful fiancé in Chocolatechip. 6 I have phone, internet and cable tv. 7 I have plenty of books to read. 8 I am in good physical health. 9 I have a worker that comes in and cooks and cleans. 10 I get an SSI and Social Security Check 11 I am not hooked on alcohol or drugs. 12 I am debt free 13 I have a wonderful support system in Healthways

Life is good. Life is pretty damned good