Saturday Morning in New Diary

I had a very bad day yesterday. I had to go out. and a loty of times I really hated leaving my apartment. The lady at the bank was rude to me. She gave me a very dirty look. The van driver never speaks to me. Lets say we have very sordid history of unpleasantness. Had a very bad experience at Wal Mart. We were sitting on a bench waiting for a ride home. There was this guy standing close to u He kept pacing back and forth back and forth. We were both getting a bit nervous. Then the Wal Mart greater kept looking at us Then there was the problem about the missing $5

I hate being out in public. People are just crazy these days. There I just no call for being rude I don’t understand why the van driver doesn’t speak to me. Could it hurt her or is it too much frigging effort to say Hi John how you doing. I used to say hi to her whenever I got in the van. but not no more. I just get in and keep my mouth shut.

Anyways I felt very depressed when I got home. I had a major meltdown yesterday afternoon. I put my stuff away and laid on the couch Then I wasted time by playing computer games. I also bought two eBooks The Purpose of the Past by Gordon S Wood and Hamilton by Ron Chernov. One was for $12.99 and the other for $13.99

Bright part of the day was ordering subs from Fox’s pizza. We always get their steak and cheese hoagie. Yum neither one of us had to do dishes.

I don’t have to go anyplace for today or tomorrow. Yippee. I love my box.

Well life is good. 1 I have a roof over my head. 2 I have insurance that pays for most of the cost of my meds 3 I have food to eat. 4 I have clothes to wear. 5 I have a wonderful fiancé in Chocolatechip 6 I have phone, internet and cable tv 7 I have plenty of books to read. 8 I am not hooked on alcohol or drugs. 9 I am in fairly good physical health. 10 I have a worker that comes in and fixes breakfast and cleans. 11 I have an SSI and Social Security Check 12 I have a wonderful support system in Healthways.

Life is good and there is no reason to be depressed