I'm Just Here... in meh...

::sitting here with my fingers interlocked, looking at the screen wondering what to write about; thinking: listening to St. Louis on The Air on our local NPR station. Played the games I wanted to play. Didn’t have homework so nothing to go over. Thinking about money I wish I had. Reminded of an earlier conversation about how when we get older we think about playing the lottery more. I said it was probably out of necessity because there are things we want to take care of. So I want to play the lottery for responsibility’s sake as opposed to an incessant need for greed. Hmm…possibly.::

My lunch was not well thought out. Now my shirt stinks.

My period keeps trying to hang on, but I think it’s finally over as of last night.

Thinking about kids and big feelings they can’t express. Kids who act out because of things going on in their little lives that they can’t properly express.

Pretty butterfly just floated at my window. It came back and is gone again.

Went online to see what book I needed for my next and last class. My last class. I need to start thinking about what firm I want to work at or if I want to work at a place with a legal department and start looking for work soon. I need to get this hair under control. I need to get my car in shape unless I find myself downtown then I won’t worry so much.

I’m feeling some kind of way.

I don’t sleep well. I lack energy. I lack motivation. I have nothing in place like I wanted them to be and I can’t stand it.

I need to buy filters for my furnace.

I forgot to request vacation for class tonight so I think I will be docked.

::head down, feeling pitiful and I really shouldn’t::

Thinking about how long it’s going to take me to get home already. That’s not good.

I recommend reading The Unincorporated Man. I wonder if it has a sequel or something because I want to know what happened to Hektor Sambianco. ::shrugs::

I think there will be a new bar near my bus stop called “SinkHole”…I don’t know the play on the words. I’ve seen these guys working hard to fix the place up. It now has new windows. I’m wondering if they will replace the door. For some reason it was in my dream. Lots of new places are popping up and I want to try it. Crown Royal has a new vanilla flavor. Can’t wait to be involved in that.

I’ve been lately having things in my dreams that just sit there like a lump in the middle of my brain and I don’t really sleep because it’s like I’m awake. It think me being uncomfortable in my own bed is part of that too. Grandkid sleeps horrible and right up under me so I almost fall off the bed most days.

I won’t drink so much water today or at school. I always pay the price for that on my way home from school.

Oh well…
Have a great day.

Kindest regards,
Sister