so apparently. flu shot thing. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

this is one of those entries. where i’ll put what happened but i won’t as usual do anything about it. it’s um more news than anything. i think. probably. maybe.

ok so. I still haven’t gotten my flu shot. ok so i’m one of those people who.is really adament about people getting their flu shot.bc um a little over 4.5 yrs. ago I got the flu and it was awful.and i never get that sick. i’m better now of course. so now i get it every yr.er the flu shot i mean not the flu. [one would hope not although sometimes people get sick from the flu shot. um yes well it gets people sick so when they get the flu it.well they won’t. but that said i get the reason people wouldn’t get the shot. if you got sick from it then you probably wouldn’t want to repeat that i’m guessing. and there are religious reasons not to.and apparently some people don’t trust them. and there are.other reasons]. so i get it. i’m just one of those people who always gets the flu shot cause like i said.

ok so i obvs. don’t have a problem w/ getting the flu shot. well.............so i have a dr.’s appt. coming up which i knew. ok. Well today before we actually had lunch my sister & I were saying we were going to get our flu shots today.well that didn’t happen.bc apparently i’m getting it during my dr.’s appt. yeah again not an issue. No the issue is i think that was decided for me by the lady. ok and once again.it’s my body. and i think i have the right to do w/ it what i want. like i wouldn’t decide for her [or anyone] that they’re getting a flu shot. [er not that i’m like responsible for her but even if i was..........actually there was once a time when for a night i was responsible for evan. and my only rule was he wasn’t allowed to leave my place that night cause i wasn’t sure what he’d do. if he was going to do something to himself then i wanted to be there when he did. and far as i know he didn’t. and also once again. if it’s about me then it should be well.about you know.me. and again it’s like i’m at a party and everyone’s talking around me but not to me. like i’m right here. at least ya know.acknowledge me,

believe me i planned to get the flu shot. i don’t like decisions being made for me. esp. when it is about my body. yeah i’d planned to talk to megan about getting one but i was the one who was going to bring it up. it’s my appt. not anyone else’s.

of course. Since w/ things like this I don’t rock the boat i’m.not going to do anything about it. [people reading this were forewarned]. no i don’t change things in this regard. i’ll just be like ‘oh that’s fine’ when it’s really not. obvs. i’m not ok w/ what happened but doing something about it bothers me more than not. when she asked about last wk. i told her my sister & I’d gotten one last yr. or something and she asked if that was my plan this yr. and i’m like ‘yeah’ and she’s like ‘ok’. i could tell she was thinking about something but that was all she said about that.

so on um wed. night. i left her a note i’d typed up stating i didn’t want a hearing test. cause i don’t. i already know i don’t hear well so there’d be no point other than them knowing and w/ my privacy issues........oh well also due to my tmj which causes nauseau i don’t like things being in my ear.er i didn’t before i developed tmj. and before this wk. er awhile before she mentioned the hearing test and said something like it’s about you so.right.exactly. that’s exactly my point too. yes it is about me. i.......yes i.i know. which contradicts the whole flu shot situation. like i’m not a plant i’m not an object.

i as i’ve stated don’t have a problem getting a flu shot. no i have a problem w/ the way it was handled.

um..........oh.right the note. here’s the part i’ve left out up untill now. So apparently she’d replied to the note as she does.at times and slipped it folded under my door.this was Thurs. morning. well it’s not that i was too busy to read it [honestly no one’s that fukin busy.we do have time to do things but if we don’t want to for w/e reason then i get it.er somewhat] it’s just A: had I read it I would’ve had to wait for.me to get ready and I don’t like waiting for me. and i mean.if something’s that damn important then she can come and actually talk to me about it. i’m the same way w/ VM. you want to talk to me pick up the phone and actually talk to me. Now she’s a quiet person and part of that’s her er heritage. she’s partially American Indian. [or aka Native American]. which is fine that she’s quiet. people of certain heritages and cultures are quieter than others. [a reason i love london so much. i realise it’s not perfect i’ve just not seen that part of it]. But.i usually won’t read folded notes. cause i don’t know what they’re about. [unless i’ve thanked her for something and then her reply is ‘of course’ or ‘sure’ or something]. So I assumed the um reply to the note was about the hearing test. [and we all know what happens when people assume]. [well that makes sense]. well yes but it also makes sense for her to say something about the flu shot situation in that note as they’re both um.regarding medical..........stuffs.

so.yeah i didn’t like that.

hopefully i’ll get a flu shot. but since someone took over regarding something about my body..........well........we’ll see.