ugh in Random Thoughts

That’s all i can say for now. I hate that my first reaction to any distressing emotion is to cry. I feel foolish.

So, i sat in a meeting with the principal, assistant principal, school psychologist, her intern, and all the 8th grade teachers....thinking the meeting was about one thing (i was prepared for) and it started out being about something else…i felt attacked and couldn’t help but to start crying. Silently. I didn’t want my school psych to get that box of tissues for me, i just wanted it to go under the radar, or for people to notice and just leave it at that.

I hate that when things go bad, my first emotional reaction is to be devastated. Feeling like i am a failure. Its not a healthy emotional reaction.