Really? There is No Problem? in Everyday Ramblings

Yes I know it is a little blurry. There wasn’t much light and it was starting to drizzle on Friday when I took this at the upper part of the park above the track.

Kes and Most Honorable are at the beach and she has been sending me pictures for the last four days of gorgeous big skies and seascapes while we have been having heavy fog, mist, light rain and a little weak sun in the afternoons. The heat is on and I brought my warm waterproof jacket out for the first time in months.

Mrs. Sherlock picked up a cold on her trip back from Europe and needed to bail on our walk yesterday. I’ll see her later in the week as she is having me over for dinner so that I can do tarot readings for her two visiting travel companions from previous vacations. They had such a good time hey get together now and then in their various home cities.

I’ll get to see Frida my favorite poodle then.

Saint Joe is taking a long weekend and I have extra work to do this coming week…actually I will be extra busy at work through the holidays and I need to plan some special time for myself treats in there so I don’t get resentful.

I know I made choices as a younger woman not to become a high level professional and that and the demographics of the baby boomer generation and stagnant wages mean I need to work until I turn 66.

My job is to accept all this and enjoy myself as much as I can.

Things at work are overall much better than they were. There is Saint Joe and Nimrod has turned out to be pretty easy to manage and the shared office with a door has been a gift from the gods. And this last year we did get this one new process that makes our work manageable after three years of begging for it.

It all feels pretty precarious though. And I still need to be hyper-vigilant about the petty but powerful antics of the evil empire.

I am almost done listening to this audiobook Already Free: Buddhism Meets Psychotherapy on the Path of Liberation by the marriage and family counselor Bruce Tift. The reason I am listening to it is that he has this interesting perspective on anxiety.

Anyway, it is hard work he is proposing we do, that we take responsibility for getting our own needs met, that we accept things exactly as they are, with kindness (and that means all sorts of uncomfortable feelings) knowing that we are doing the best we can to take care of ourselves and that we fully understand that life is full of difficulties and discomfort and that is okay. There is no problem.

On the eve of our first ever major Presidential debate that features a woman candidate I find it particularly challenging to accept both my discomfort on the possibility of a Trump win and that there is no problem.

But right this minute my life, my experience is fine. I am warm and cozy at home with two handsome affectionate cats and I am getting visual postcards from one of the most beautiful places on earth throughout the day.

A place I get to be in a month!

Last updated September 26, 2016